*Sniff* Out of my 14 (almost 15) years of life on this Earth, the worst news I have ever hoped of not getting has come...

M...my parents...they are getting a divorce...

The reason why is obvious, from after what my mom did to my dad, but...I still cannot believe she did it, It's impossible to think of her as a person who would do such a thing...

W-well, both of them met in residency (both are doctors), and I guess they "fell in love", which I don't believe anymore after my mom tells me she hasn't loved dad for the whole 14 (almost 15) years I've been alive...I mean, this is the worst news I have ever, and I mean EVER recieved...I felt like I was going to throw up everything I had ever eaten, right there...

And, what makes this news even worse is, that...well, we are really in debt, and so, um, well, you see, we have moved once already because we couldnt afford the private schools, so we came from Chicago to Glenview...but now, what is horrible is since we are still really in debt, we are proabably going to have to sell our house, and, oh, I don't know, maybe live in a trailer (we have a park with them near our house)?

I mean, like, the first bad news I ever recieved was when my little sister, Emily, comes up to me and tells me that my favorite cousin, David, had commited suicide, and we had to go to the funeral. I cried so hard, because he was such a great person...

B-but...that's another story, and it was...not as recent as this, because, well, this just happened today...a-and I don't know what to do, I mean, I knew they have been going to a marriage counselor, and that was helping, but...I guess not...

Plus...plus...my mom, she is in love with someone else, a-and he is married...not in a good relationship himself...this made me really sick, because she kept telling me and my brother and sister how she "betrayed your father's trust" and stuff like that...I felt horrible, and we didn't even do anything to provoke this...

Ugh, I dont know what else to say, I really don't...I just needed to blog this, because, well, I didn't know what else to do...So, here it is, the worst thing that has ever happened to me in my entire life...

UPDATE: 10/3/06

W-well, I guess my parents are going to try and s...stay together, which kind of disturbs me...I mean, I came downstairs today, and my mom wasn't even sleeping in the same room as my dad...She was just sleeping on the couch, and my stomach started doing flip-flops at seeing that...it was...so sad...I did not want to see that...at all...

Okay, w..well now, along with a marriage counselor, they are, well...um, going to see seperate people, and...my mom, who believes she is the cause of this...is, well...she's cutting off all relations with the man she is, um...in l...love with...