Blah.. the 14th sucked for mr really... the night before was quite a bit better. i was out with Devon and managed to tell him how i felt on a note with a rose at the end of the night. i got a kiss on the cheek gonight so it was a good night. i saw him today and he said nothing about it... So i dont know what to go by it. Nick and I have been getting a bit better i think... hopefully it'll progress yet. Dericks been getting rather cuddley with me lately, expsaly at the taekwondo sleep over we had he was always with me like a lil puppy. And im rather bored... Jr.s not on and he is the like only person i talk to here on gaia anymore... My friend ashley and her bf are always cuddeling at skool, tis starting to really piss me off... everyone prolly knows im a very cuddely girl and wouldnt pass up an opertunity to be held by someone i care for. and seeing as i cant at skool cuz i have no one really it depresses me. Kyle is after me i think.. which is rather disturbing... im his number 1 girl of choice on a match maker listings at skool while i have him as number 10. i dont like him at all, and another kid, riley i found out likes me. hes nice and all but i mean comon.. its lame... the one person i wouldnt mind being with irl is leaving for 3 months! and now im feeling rather shy and ingoring him somewhat... cuz i told him, and i cant see how he reaction was. nor do i know... im dieing to talk to hima bout it but im afraid to bring it up. 2 weeks and his gone.. i really have to do something. As for online relationships me and jr. are doing pretty well, more best friends able to talk to eachother about anything relationship then anything else i must admit, but its nice to have someone i can talk about everything with as well as curl up with. As i mentioned earlier me and Nick are getting along well again after i tweeked not too long ago... heh. it gave him a good idea how i felt and i think that if all goes well... we might be togeather again one day, but it'll have to be irl *shrugs lighlty* Hmm.... okay im done ranting.. i've really been wanting to talk about this all day. i wasnt guna bring it up with anyone though cuz i'll just annoy them. I started feeling like needing to rant and rather miserable when Dev left today at lunch. i really dont want him to see me sad, i was fne before. he came in and as i said i wanted to ask him what he thought of my letter but i couldnt do it. he stayed for maybe 10 min then left without a word to anyone... rather haunting me. Anyway i think im done here.. nothing much more i can say without repeting if i havent already. byye
 playwithfire · Tue Feb 15, 2005 @ 11:45pm · 2 Comments |
