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It's the year 2007 and people say that the end of the world nears. I haven't heard of any of it yet, but they're aware of the thought of the world ending soon. But what are we to do? We can't stop it, now can we? After all, we depleted the earth, and by ignorance, we now cannot undo the damage done. All we can do is slow it down.
Off that thought for a sec...>_<
In with a new year, in with a new Mary. Me. Yes me. A new me. Well, not a completely new and brainwashed Mary-chan, but a modified one. A Mary which was better than the one before.
I was supposed to make a journal entry before the clock struck 12 midnight on December 31, but the Internet went down because of the earthquake in Taiwan. It damaged telecommunications and some websites became unaccessible. Broadcast of sites went down along with the Internet downtime. Fortunately for those who subscribe to different ISPs which solved their problem ASAP. Oh well... at least it's gotten a bit better since then.
Okay, more on me for a bit. No, that wasn't an attempt on being vain. It's just that I've reflected a lot during the Christmas/Winter Break. Most of the time, I'd lay around and sleep all day, but nonetheless, I still did lots of thinking.
It came to a climax on Christmas evening. I decided to go to bed earlier than everyone else. I started to think again. I don't know how it got to me, but I started to reminisce back on the year 2006. I thought about how I was as a person, how I was at life. I have to admit, that was one odd year. Now that I think of it, it can be considered a year put to waste. It just wasn't right. I don't remember doing anything right last year. I was some dirty b***h -- THAT'S how I see myself last year. Things got too out of hand. I was too slutty. Not that I was unfaithful and dishonest, rather I was just too lustful. My lust got the best of me, and I know that someday I will pay. But I will do ANYTHING to undo that. Too bad I can't. Then again, I can start taking care of myself now. It's the most I can do -- the best thing to do.
I was disrespectful. I developed a dirty mouth, actually. But one thing I learned last year was to speak up and be strong, and I learned how to use the right words. I developed my superior personality a little more. I learned to be confident, and I have my Love to thank for part of it. He'd encourage me when I needed a boost on confidence. Hmm...this reminds me of my parents' relationship -- how Dad manipulated Mom into sticking up for herself. It'll be different though, I'm sure of it. I won't get trampled -- if I don't wanna do it, I won't. I'm gonna have to be persistent and consistent.
The new Mary-chan. Hmm... I think I've seen all my flaws with all that thinking. I'll be correcting those this year. I started it out kinda rough, but I got myself in line. I just need lots and lots of discipline to keep me in line. And I'm gonna keep it up, no matter what. Nothing is gonna stop me from changing for the better.
 Mary Hiryu · Mon Jan 08, 2007 @ 02:36pm · 0 Comments |
