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Well, well, well. I'm having an interesting time.
I am having semi-issues with my "relationship" and so are all my friends too. One of my friends asked me what makes me happy and I said that I didn't know. I know what makes me sad though, because that seems to happen a lot more that what makes me happy. He also said I haven't smiled a lot lately, and that I rarely smile. My dad said that I look really tired all the time. I haven't eaten much for 2 months, just dinner and a few snacks at lunch and after school. I'm not getting enough sleep. I feel like I'm being "over-worked" and everything just seems to be going ify for me. It is partialy my fault, I will admit that, because I do want to be alone and everyone talks to me, then when I don't want to be alone, everyone ignores me. I just feel like I don't have that one group of friends I can be with. No offense to any of you, I just don't fit in with anyone. One of my friends said she would be that friend, but now she has another friend and I feel like I don't matter anymore.
If you're reading this, please don't bother me about it, just tell me why I should stay alive and why everyone wants me to be alive, not something like "You make us laugh all the time," or "You're so entertaining," because if I disappear, you'll find someone else to do all that. I want to be wanted for something that only I can do, because currently, I feel like I can't do anything for anyone to make them want to be with me.
There's my rant, don't mention it in school please, I want to figure this out on my own please.
 charliechick117 · Wed Mar 14, 2007 @ 10:13pm · 0 Comments |
