It's been awhile since I ranted. I have realized this, and I accepted the fact that I've been really annoying and whiny lately. I understand that it has (probably) distressed most of you that I'm contemplating why I'm even alive. Hell, I don't deserve to live. I'm a dispenser of truths, even though most of you out there hate me.
I have two words for those who hate me:
******** YOU!!!
I can understand why you'd hate me. I, too, cater to my own negative phases from time to time.
I'm only human.
Call me your G-d, your Hashem, your Adonai. But I am no G-d. I am just another human, able to err. I bleed crimson just like everyone else.
I may be unusually wise beyond my fifteen years of life, but I am no stranger to emotion. I have been through quite a bit.
Does that make me better?
No. I am just like you, dear reader-- you. I , too, have felt the cold sting of pain and the hollowness of loneliness. But I no longer fear it. I embrace it. I am my only company.
I like it this way.
This is the way I have chosen to live. I can only hope that you can accept that about me.
Call me a loner, a self-centered and self-involved wretch.
I don't care.
I stopped caring long ago. Your assaults no longer hurt me.
I made my vow to never weep again for a reason.
I have kept my vow thus far.
And here, my dearest reader, my bitterest enemy, I leave you. Go frolic among the lies and webs of deceit woven by your own world. Go back to your families. Go back into reality. But remember my words.
 Jew-bacca · Sat Mar 17, 2007 @ 08:27am · 2 Comments |
