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I was asked to explain why I was feeling emo. So here it goes.
I feel very very sad for multiple reasons. One of the most convinent one would be because of my friends. You all tell me how much you love me but when it comes to acting like it, you are far from doing so. I'm assuming you've heard the saying "Actions speak louder than words" and I belive its true, seeing as how I've heard how much I'm loved but never felt like I really was. I know I never go out and do something to get me noticed, but everytime one of my best friends were feeling down, I was always ther to help them feel better and I usually feel like none of you did any of that for me. A few of my friends say they feel unloved when they are constantly told they are loved, and not only told, but the actions show they are loved. I often feel like I could kill my self over the weekend and no one would know because they never talk to me except at school. Please please don't worry too much about me, I want to die but I won't because it would be too painful on my part. I think I will post a song now:
I tried to kill the pain
but only brought more
I lay dying
and I’m pouring crimson regret and betrayal
I’m dying praying bleeding and screaming
am I too lost to be saved
am I too lost?
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
do you remember me
lost for so long
will you be on the other side
or will you forget me
I’m dying praying bleeding and screaming
am I too lost to be saved
am I too lost?
I want to die!
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my God my tourniquet
return to me salvation
my wounds cry for the grave
my soul cries for deliverance
will I be denied Christ
tourniquet
my suicide
 charliechick117 · Sat Mar 24, 2007 @ 06:37pm · 0 Comments |
