Hello again!
I am not going to tell my age (although its fairly easy to find out), however, I will admit I am not a kid anymore. Im married, and I live far away from my parents - sadly, but they move around so much I could never keep up with them (three times this year for work).
If you know me even a little (or if you read some of my journal), well you know I am in school, late, for personal reasons. This was an unintended detour and I am trying to make the most sense out of it and not become overwhelmed.
Well, my dad works in the cath lab as a tech... and he wants me to do something in the medical field too. Of course I don't want to, its not for me. I love learning about medical stuff, but I don't think I can go into a field (even for an easier course) which deals so much with people - and so close and personal too... not to mention the hospital politics, social intricacies - plus lets not forget the patient. What a lot to go through every long day of your life for the rest of your days.
Well, my mom told him the other night I was considering something in computer science (oh my god, I am only considering it, I still don't know what I want to do - but I *do* know I like to *make* things) and he got all upset (she called me to warn me lol) and so now I have to sit here and think about all the things I have to say as to why I do not want to work in a hospital or doctor's office.
I guess it doesn't matter that I am 31 (oops, I told), I am still afraid to disappoint my dear old dad. Do we ever outgrow this feeling, those of us that have it? Why do I have to sit here and begin to raise my army of reasons instead of just relax and leave it simple : tell him its my decision and that's that (which I know he will accept, but that won't remove his disappointment of the choice). Since I moved away with my husband my dad has never relented with telling me how important it is to go to school *now*. And for a while I was happy, for a month or so he was in approval of me - the rare instance - because I finally was: going to school, and also considering a career in medical (well, it was rather brief). It felt pretty good, and now, I have to let that go. Its a bummer. Ah well...
Anyway, so yeah.. enough talking. I'll get back to this later.
Cheers.
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PS Excuse my writing since english is not my first language. 4laugh mrgreen