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Alright... More just because then for any other reason, things that I have always wanted to do.

I have always wanted to be a ballerina. Ever since I was a little girl and was actually in ballet classes, I wanted to dance. Sadly, it was simply not meant to be. As all the little girls around me were praised and given roles in performances, I was just a little klutz, tripping over my own feet. Soon we could no longer afford the lessons so that dream was long lost. Today, I still wish I could dance like that, though I know that could never happen. First off, I am too large. Not because of over eating, but because of evil genetics. >.< Also because of Ehlers-Danlos syndrome, which would most definitely prevent me from doing anything like dancing.

Another dream dashed by EDS is running. I have to say that I have a fascination, bordering on obsession with the sensation running gives you. It's just and almost euphoric, free feeling. It's indescribable... You can just run and for a minute, nothing can touch you, you're safe and it doesn't matter.... I can't do it though. I run for a few minutes and I either fall on my face or have to stop due to intense pain in my joints. >.< Is is I just had a knee surgery last week. I am never going to run again, not that I managed much before. I remember sitting on the bleachers during PE class and watching the rest of the class run... I remember I used to cry. Unless you are someone who cannot run, you can't imagine the feeling of knowing that you can't run... It's just not fair.

Some things I may still have a chance at doing would be to play the violin. That is something that I would really like to do. I love violin music. I think it is absolutely beautiful.
Lets see... what else. I have always wanted to learn sign language. I think that would be a lot of fun to learn.
Umm... I really want to get into a field where I would work with children. Especially children who need help. Both my brother and sister are bipolar and I want to be in a situation where I can help other kids that are in a difficult situation.
What else? Not sure...

This was all written after taking a lot of pain medications so I'm not really thinking clearly. @.@