Why can't things ever seem to play in my favor? Part of the reason I go mad at school is because too many things happen at once and when it matters that I need time, I'm bombarded with billions of assignments at once without warning and little time to finish all that s**t on top of practice. I don't practice as much as I should, but then when it counts that I need time I just get s**t dumped on me. It's part of the reason I don't want to waste my time going to a counselor, because I could be somewhere else trying to either get work done for the next day, or using that time to try and just relax before the next day. I can never seem to do things when I want to for whatever various reason that comes up. It just pisses me off. My last week before vacation was one of those weeks. In the end I skipped classes one of the days and one of these classes included a quiz that I finally just had to say "******** it" to. Scheduling during this last week before break also made it so I couldn't call a high school to get required observation times in until Thursday morning, when I missed classes. I didn't get the times for this week until this afternoon so I missed day 1 of observations and tomorrow they aren't even giving me a time of how long I'll be there to get my time in. I don't know if I'm planning 2 or 3 hours but I can't go under 2, and I can't go over 3, and I hope they realize this. Then my bf would not tell me his plans for this week so I couldn't line things up with him either until tonight when I found out he was planning to come up tomorrow morning. I wouldn't have known this if my parents hadn't slipped up. I don't WANT him coming up tomorrow. It would have been smarter to come up tonight because I have s**t to do tomorrow and had the whole day to ******** around with no-one but mom bitching at me about whether i appreciate my bf or not and about how I keep organized. I also would have liked the company tonight to relax before going in tomorrow into a situation where I don't know what the ******** I'm doing. I'm just not happy about the whole thing. Scheduling always just sucks with everything whether I'm in school or not.
Riku Doll of Darkness Community Member 
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