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5 times...Each time, she promised she wouldn't do it again. I should've stayed the same. I should believe no one. Not even myself. I know what you're thinking. "Shut up and go on with your life!" My life is a an empty road, that ends at a cliff. I'm getting closer than you all think. Why not just jump off now? No one will care. They would just watch me. Watch me fall and fall untill I am unable to see no longer. Hey wait...No one can see me anyway. I'm just in that dark corner. Just fading faster than you think. I've hurt to many people in my life. Even the ones that cared. So, I think it'll just be better if everyone just...Pushed me aside. Everyone else had, go and join thier club. Don't even talk to me. Just stare...Stare and say, "Worthless scum." Right now, my asthma is triggered. So, it's hard to breathe, and my heart rate is slowing. The rate is dropping faster than I thought. It was also crushed...Crushed into tiny bits and pieces. Hmm...My mother was right when she heard me tell her, "I love you." She said, "...One day you will regret those words..." And now I see why. So for now on, I'm just gonna keep my mouth shut.