I've spent the last 3 years of my miserable life making plans and watching them crumble. This year I was determined not to fail. I would finish Highschool and get the grant to start College. I would make it through college with difficulty, I know. But who doesn't? I would make it, either way. No matter what.
Well, of course...someone has stepped on it. Why can't they just believe me when I say I'm going to finish something for once? Yes, I know I give up easily...but I have reason for it. I do. I've been let down so much in my life, or I accomplish something, and yet my glory and praise is stolen from me. So why try?
I want to be the one in my family that goes to college and actually gets a diploma. That actually gets a degree in something important. My sister went for a year then quit...yet she still got a job that makes her happy...She gets everything that makes her happy...But I don't...
Yeah, I get what ever my little heart desires...or so it seems. I PAY for everything. I save up the money, and I get what I want. My parents don't spoil me as much as everyone thinks...I'm sure they'd like to think that.
I just want my life to go according to plan for once...I want to turn 18 and finally be with the guy that I have to wait a year to officially have...I want to marry him as planned...I want to be happy. I want to open up my Performance Modifications shop...but most of all...I want someone to be proud of me...
Is that so much to ask?? I don't need stuff...I can buy it all myself. I'm not as lazy as they say. I can get a job. I've had one before. I just want them to be happy for me...like they are for her...
 larka_la_fey · Thu Jul 14, 2005 @ 09:09pm · 1 Comments |
