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Warning, heavy topics below the splice! Don't read if you don't want to hear about me talk about gender, sex, sexual orientation and desire.

Today ... Was a strange day. I kind of liked it. I'm making closer friends with a guy I've worked with for three years but never actually talked to him a lot about anything of importance with ... He's a good guy. ^^ We're both afraid of many of the same things for some of the same reasons, and we both need to get out of our current residences for similar reasons as well ... We had a good talk. But another guy I work with ... God, sometimes I hate that guy. =/ He's understanding enough to know I'm a weirdo, but ... Seriously. A major downer today.

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Anyway. Sex ... Gender ... Sexual Orientation ... Sexual Desire ... Me. I've been thinking about a lot of things lately. And, as my current status quotes, I'm not sure I have a gender any more. I have a female body. Sometimes I love it to bits, other times I wish I didn't have breasts at all (because for me, those other girly bits don't matter so much, no one's going to ever see mine anyway). I enjoy looking like a girl but giving people a ******** by displaying more male body language.

There are some people I work with ... Who don't understand a few things. Sex and gender are two different things. I like androgyny. I happen to want to look androgynous ... This does not mean I want to be a guy. This does not have anything to do with my sexual orientation - which I don't exactly have. It doesn't make me a lesbian to like androgyny. I like not being able to tell they're sex ... I happen to find that amazingly aesthetically pleasing! But I'm not a dyke, or straight, or trans because of it.

And on the topic of sexual orientation (SO for short). I don't think SO has anything to do with sexual desire. You can be attracted to women, or men, or androgynes, or intersexed people, or transmen, or transwomen ... But I don't think that has anything to do with sexual desire whatsoever. I'm asexual so I don't want to jump people's bones. But that doesn't mean I don't get aroused. I just don't feel like I wanna jump someone. It's not appealing to me.

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