I started out having a good day. Woke up early, got dressed, brushed my teeth, packed my lunch and then went to my job training. There I was able to fix the issues I was having with logging into the servers. I was able to come home early, eat my bowl of spaghetti o's with my cup of milk, and then figure out where my important documents are (they hadn't come in the mail yet). I was feeling good and I wanted to go out and buy some candles for when I use Pooky's office. Pooky came with me but we got in an argument. Now I am feeling bad. I don't even remember what exactly I said to upset him but he is upset. I don't get it.... It is times like these that make me want to leave him and find someone who isn't so... *sigh*....
I wish he wouldn't get so mad about me wanting to do the "do" if you know what I mean. We have been together for almost 4 years now and we still haven't. I will stay with him regardless but he gets so defensive when the subject pops up. I want it, I do, but I'm not going to force him, I respect him and his wishes. But why does he have to make me feel bad for wanting to do it? Couples are supposed to right? Even random people do it... I just wanted to have that bond with him... Why does that have to be so bad?
I feel horrible for wanting it... for wanting him...
· Thu Feb 20, 2020 @ 12:40am · 0 Comments