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~Moriko-san's Journal~ Yay.........I'm just gonna use this as another place to write meaningless things........^_^

Moriko san
Community Member
"My Mind has a Mind of it's Own"
Yes well. No it doesn't actually. xD But that be what Cuddles said and I hate coming up with names for things so Imma stick up there and be happy with it.

I am surprised by how much Spanish I have retained from highschool xD
It make sme wonder if I should have taken it in my senior year as well O;
Maybe if I had actually LEARNED anything in PSanish class in my junior year instead of watching a bunch of movies and making food then maybe I would have...maybe...Nah Probably not. xD Though I do regret not being able to have taught the silly elementary schoolers spanish -- I would've confused them by throwing in Japanese words xDD
Not that they would have known better of course rolleyes

The reason being that I've thought and realized about how much Spanish I remember is because I've been forced to use my rusty second language in conversation with a guy from El Salvador ( What exactly do they call people from there? ._. I mean like if yer from America you're American....Is it liek El Salvadorian? D8 )
whose english is poor and her prefers to not use it at all xD so that leaves me to pick up the slack
but since I haven't been studying it or using it for that matter for well over two years most of our conversations are him saying something and me being like "...Que significa -insert unknown word here-?" DDDD8

Or I say something and he corrects me but I don't always pick up on that xD So I just kinda smile and go yeah....Because when you're confused you should always smile and nod your head and pretend you understood then run away ;D

I've also realized through all this that I can't really speak Spanish anymore xDD (Sorry Abby I know you love hearing me speak spanish because for some God only knows Reason you think it soudns cute xD) I can really only understand it in writing...But I have to do a lot of guessing because the Hispanic peoples like to mispell their words like we Americans do when we chat to one another online 8D hooray!
I am just glad that Spanish is mostly a phoentic language xD I say mostly cause they have the funky double L sounding like a y xD and all that good stuff....Oh and the H not really existing in it's true form, instead they have the J and the G sometimes doing all the work for it xD

Jajajajaja < -- seeing that makes me giggle x3

Oh and Jejejeje...
I wonder if Nikki will read this at all. xD
If you do then Nikki and I have another spider story to tell you! 8D

Wednesday June, 4
It was nice out tonight so I went for a walk. My head was rather jumbled and left me feeling sad so after a few minutes of tears which I really can't quite explain logically I decided to walk out. I don't think my mother even noticed that I left the house, kind of sad huh?

The walk was very calming and left me feeling slightly energized. I think I might go out walking at night more often. As I was walking I wondered vaquely whether or not I would miss the streets i walked down so many times growing up here and if the place I decide to go to next would have something similar to it's feel. I think once in a Blue Moon I would miss this place, it's rather pretty in the spring and early summer and gorgeous in the fall. But other than that I think I could easily leave it because although I've grown comfortable here I feel rather stunted and and caged up and I can't say all the memories I have here are fond but I think I should grow to get used to that because I am sure life isn't done in that department and most likely never will be.

But that's ok. I don't mind. I've lasted this long I see no reason to get depressed over it now. After deciding that I wouldn't miss it too much I wondered where exactly I would go next either way. I think it would be good for me to leave the area but where would I go and not feel lonely? Yes I do feel lonely here a lot but I still have something to connect me to reality here...I won't have that if I leave. I guess I'll ponder that later though I need to stop putting things off so much.

At least school is almost over - and I have mixed feelings about that too. A few weeks ago I was dreading this time sooo much. I would be leaving behind a lot of friends and being the way I am it's hard for me to make a conscious effort to stay in touch with people which is really sad on my part. I know I'll have a lot of regrets on what I did or didn't do over my course of high school but I think it will be a tremedous relief when it's all done. And after that initial relief worry and more sadness will come rushing in to fill up any gaps because heaven forbid Jessica get to relax for long. But I'm lazy so I guess I can't complain so I won't. Though thinking about it now if I leave here sooner rather than later I wonder how much of that responsibility I know is waiting for me here will leave and be replaced by something a little more different, but prehaps more difficult?

I look at all of my older siblings and wonder why they are the way they are. My three eldest siblings never finished High School and two of them are still pretty in a rut and I don't forsee them getting out anytime soon. My fourth eldest pretty much has her life set out for her and I can't say I envy her at all but she seems to be content with it but I can't imagine why...Maybe it's because she just doesn't know what else is out there I guess. I wonder how my younger siblings will be. I can see The two that live with my mom ending up like my eldest sibling but maybe they won't...I don't see college in their future though...I don't really see it in my though either /=

But that's another thing that doesn't bother me much. College isn't going to gaurentee me an easier life and I don't feel ready to force myself into something that will decide my path for the rest of my life. But again Oh well, right? My fourth eldest sibling went to college but she dropped out. Which leave sme an opportunity to fullfill something and be "better" than all my elder siblings but I don't feel a need to. I am pretty disconnected from them right now and don't need to prove myself better than them, I am so different from them that it would be silly to do so.

And now when I think about college I always connect it to my dad. He was the one who was always lecturing me about school, I felt like my mother just went along with it, she never graduated high school either. I'm not so simple minded that I would do badly in something because I didn't know hwo to do good, it would be all due to my laziness and lack of drive.

Well look at this I seem to have babbled on about nothing really. Again. So I'll just end it here. Not that anyone will read this anyways, I wonder if that's a good thing or a bad thing...

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Moriko san
Community Member

Moriko san
Community Member
Again...For Blue-chan <<
Do this quiz to know more about you plz tell me the truth thx
Am I sweet?-
Am I crazy?-
Am I lovable?-
Am I funny?-
Am I ugly?-
Am I psycho?-
Am I annoying?-
Am I a good person?-
Am I hot?-

2)******Would You******
Miss me if i was gone?-
Listen to my problems?-
Hug me if i cried?-
Be a good friend?-
Kiss me if i asked you to?-
Kiss me if i asked you not to?-

3)******If You Could...******
Give me a new name it would be?-
Hook me up with someone who would it be? (Not a celeb.) -
Hook me up with a celeb who would it be?-
Do one thing with me it would be?-
Drop me one piece of advice it would be?-
Make out with me would you?

4)******Just A Few Questions******
What do u like about me?-
What do u hate about me?-
What is my best quality?-

1. Who are you?-
2. Do you have a crush on me?-
3. Are we good friends?-
4. Do we know each other in real life?-
5. Is my avatar hot? (dont need to answer)-
6. Whats your fav. kind of music?-
7. Will you put this in your journal so i can answer these questions about you?-

Looking Back at Old Journal Entries xD
Man I was strange...Thinking abou tthings I've done in the past makes me want to kick myself and I wonder how I was ever like the way I was xD
Oh well - too late now
Reading old Journal entries is fun. Especially when I have no idea what they heck I was talking about in some fo them ^^
A couple of them are pretty old, and not surprisingly over the years I have not keep to updating this thing xD
I also found another journal I had on another account - that one only had two posts
Yay me.

Moriko san
Community Member

Moriko san
Community Member
BlogThings Quizese! xD
When I am bored I tend to take these Dx
I eve have my friend Amanda addicted to them...Anywho! SOme recent ones I have taken :3

Your Linguistic Profile
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55% General American English

25% Yankee

10% Dixie

5% Upper Midwestern

0% Midwestern

What Kind of American English Do You Speak?

You Are A Walnut Tree:
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You are strange and full of contrasts... the oddball of your group.
You are unrelenting and you have unlimited ambition.
Not always liked but always admired, you are more infamous than famous.
You are aggressive and spontaneous, and your reactions are often unexpected.
A jealous and passionate person, you are difficult in romantic relationships.

What's Your Celtic Horoscope?

You Are a Chihuahua Puppy
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Small, high strung, and loyal.
You do best in the city with a adults - young kids could crush you!

What Breed of Puppy Are You?

You Are Cookie Monster
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Misunderstood as a primal monster, you're a true hedonist with a huge sweet tooth.

You are usually feeling: Hungry. Cookies are preferred, but you'll eat anything if cookies aren't around.

You are famous for: Your slightly crazy eyes and usual way of speaking

How you life your life: In the moment. "Me want COOKIE!"

The Sesame Street Personality Quiz

Pffft I are Cookie Monster ^ xD

You Should Rule Saturn
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Saturn is a mysterious planet that can rarely be seen with the naked eye.

You are perfect to rule Saturn because like its rings, you don't always follow the rules of nature.
And like Saturn, to really be able to understand you, someone delve beyond your appearance.

You are not an easy person to befriend. However, once you enter a friendship, you'll be a friend for life.
You think slowly but deeply. You only gain great understanding after a situation has past.

What Planet Should You Rule?

Your Birth Month is September
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Tolerant and inspirational, you are wise beyond your years.
You are universally sympathetic and a great humanitarian.

Your soul reflects: Devotion, light, and love

Your gemstone: Sapphire

Your flower: Morning Glory

Your colors: Brown and deep blue

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

Another Quiz thingy to fill out O:
Yes yes I know I already have on ein here but I got this from Blue-chan's journal and had to put it in here for her O:

So please don't point that out x__x

1. I came running to you crying?
2. I kissed you?
3. I said I loved you?
4. I was murdered?
5. I commited suicide?
6. I killed someone?
7. I was hospitalized?
8. I was going to die?
9. I was your stalker?
10. I became severely depressed?
11. You received a phone call from me, and someone was on the other line and they said that I had died in some car accident?
12. I became famous?
13. I started smoking?
14. I did drugs?
15. I lived next door to you?

What do you think of......

My eyes?
My hair?
My body?
My personality?
My smile?
My voice?
Anything you'd change?


Whats more important?(Pick ONE of the following.)

Skin color.
Sexual appeal.
Clothing style.

Other Things...

1.Who are you?
2.Are we friends?
3.More than friends?
4.What are your hobbies?
5.Where are you from?
6.What other languages can you speak?
7.Favorite type of music?
8.Describe me in one word.
9.Is there something you want to tell me, but can't?
10.What do you like best about me?
11.Pick one emoticon for me.
12.Whats one thing you like about yourself?
13.One thing you hate about yourself?
14.One think you like about me?
15.One thing you hate about me?
16.Whos your favorite person?
17.Would you kiss me?
18.Would you tell me that you loved me?
19.Would you have sex with me?
20.Would you marry me?
21.Drive half-way across the country to see me?
22.Do something to harm me?
23.Whats your favorite anime?
24.Favorite color?
25.Favorite food?
26.Favorite place to visit?
27.Favorite place to go for solitude?
28.If you could be anywhere right now, where would you be?
29.Will you put this in your journal to see what I have to say about you?

Moriko san
Community Member

Moriko san
Community Member
-Ish not Special enough to have a title-
So once again I've found mself scrolling through my old journal entries - seeing as how I have nothing better to do. v,v (Which is so not true - I could think of a hundred things that Icould be doing instead but that's not important xD)
Sooo anyway...............Darn....I knew I had somethign so but I've completely forgotton what it was. rolleyes Maybe if I keep typing it'll come back to me.

Nope. Can't remember. v_v
- Oh well, I'm sure it wasn't worth typing anyways. (Is anything you think actually worth typing? xD) - Sadly no. stare

Oh wait - I think I remember it now xD

One of the entries on here mentioned something about my art...It must have been from ninth grade I believe....Yes. I had keyboarding in ninth grade so that's when it was. I recall saying that all my pictures sucked....I guess that's true xD (From back then at least.) I used to post my pictures up here on Gaia but I believe I've since removed them all xD At the time I'm sure I had a reason why but I don't know it now. I seriously think I have a memory issue. v,v

Whenever I send someone a pm About two minues after I send it I'll think about what I wrote and freak out - not remembering if typed something correctly or accidently left out half the words xD So I'll have to go to my outbox/sentbox and check the message to make sure I didn't completely kill it. (Turns out that 98% of the time I'm just crazy @,@)
Anyway....Oh yeah, my art. My mom now has me putting my art up in my WoW's guild newsletter for the site. Usually I'm too lazy to create something specifically for this so I just use one that's already lying around. But th last one I put up there was still fairly new and I don't feel like I cheated them xD So I figured I would put it up in here for all you people (And by that I mean all you three-ish xD) can see it.

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Lately I've been wanting a reason to use stipplism in my art. ninja
Precisely why I'm glad that the advanced art class is allowed to come up with their own project ideas. So for this project I dea I'm doing a set of three stippled pieces...All of which I plan to be fantasy creatures. (In case you were wondering That one up there is a Dryad - hence the tree xD)
I still don't know what I want the other two to be though. Abby says I should do a Gryphon. xD But I kind of want to do a mermaid....I guess we'll just have to wait and see.
I'm currently tied up doing my teacher projedct right now and will have to come back to this one later. (Self portraits are bad enogh but gee - a collage??? gonk ) Pure evilness right there v,v

Ok that's enough ranting for now. I doubt I'll ever type so much in here again. ninja
-wanders away-

My eyes....
Are all irritated from all this smooooke and stuffs....I suppose it's a good thing I've neglected to wear my contacts. Not that almost being out my contact solution has anything to do with it. rolleyes

Tomorrow is Thanksgiving!!! I didn't think I would see my sister Crystal til then but she came over today for a little bit. She's Blonde! o.o

Kinda scary....xD
Her son ish so cute though!!! xD

Moriko san
Community Member

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