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I haven't posted in here in probably well over a year. Might as well.

Its weird. Something as simple as someone moving can warp your world beyond normal measures. My dear friend Kinkin moved to pueblo, and while its only about half an hour away, it might as well be the world separating us. Even though we didn't talk for 4 years because of a lapse in communications, I still thought about her a lot, and since she moved, its been different. I don't think she knows exactly how much she's helped me, even without meaning to do it.

School sucks. I'm a junior this year (only 1 more year after this! In theory at least) and its still the same as every other year. Everyone has always said that being a junior is different then the other years, but it feels the same. I don't feel any different, the world doesn't seem different (ok, well, it does, but thats not because I'm older). Others have changed around me, but I've been the same. Really, I've been the same for years, the only change was the darkness falling over me.

Though lately I've been questioning several things, not just in the world around me, but in myself as well. Just in this past week, which I have spent meditating on myself, I've found hundreds of things I regret, and I wonder exactly how can you go about solving those? Most would say its in the past and theres nothing to do about it, but I can't. . .nay won't just accept that. All the people I've hurt, all the pain I've caused. How do you fix something like that?

Damn, this is starting to make me depressed again.