I'm grounded again! Probably for another month, AKA all summer vacation. And I lost the cell phone I just got.
Why, you ask?
Because I had to stay up all night and up until about 7 am, because my mom had some woman over here and she got drunk as hell. So I had to watch the house pretty much while my mom was sleeping.
So now I'm grounded because I slept until about 5 pm, and I wasn't up at noon to go INSTANTLY grab the mail when my mom ordered me to. Of course she can't do ANYTHING herself, and if I don't agree to be her slave I get punished. I can't take much more of this! I just want to stop everything >.<
Oh, and now she's going to try and get me throw in jail for assault. Because when she took my cell hpone I grabbed it and took it back. I barely even made CONTACT with her, but she went and hit her OWN wrist against the counter to make it look like I had hurt her. She's that ******** crazy.
I'm sick of my mom treating me like I'm nothing more than just a slave. She thinks I'm a whore, doesn't trust me at all, and doesn't even acknowledge that I have feelings. All she does is b***h at me about how worthless I am. And if I don't just do exactly as she says, when she says it, I get punished. I'm so sick of this! I don't know what I can do to make it stop. I'm going to break. I can't take anymore! It's making me depressed. I've been sleeping most of the day and night, I haven't felt like eating hardly at all, and I think I'm finally starting to break down.
When I try to talk to her, she just calls me a hateful stupid b***h and tells me to shut the ******** up. And if I say anything back, I get in MORE trouble.
I already do so much for her. I clean the house, I do all the cooking, I do the shopping, then I carry everything inside. She's disabled, so I have to do everything for her. And she doesn't even appreciate it. I have never once heard her say so much as a thank you. I don't even get an allowance anymore. Oncein a while, if I give her enough trouble and she really believes that I won't do something she needs done, she'll give me 5 bucks. Other than that, I don't get anything in exchange for doing all this work. I just can't handle it by myself anymore.
I need help. I just need to get out of here. Somewhere away from her. I wish I had a real family who loved me and cared about me. I know I'll never have that but god, I wish I did. I just can't take anymore. I'm about to do something desperate and I don't want it to come to this but I just can't take this! I cant...
 The Hope · Sun Jul 08, 2007 @ 12:33am · 0 Comments |
