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My sadness, my suffering, my life, my happiness, my everything...It all started with the one I love the one I adored the one I would do anything for. She was my everything...and only now I had wish for her to stay. If only I had said something to convince her to stay in my life. If only I could see her again....

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Living, Dying. What's the difference if your gone?
When was it that we started down this path of loathing each other? I didn't see it coming, but then again some where in my heart I wanted you to let me go. I know I was wrong in deciving you like I did. I was the one to blame for my selfish actions that caused you to leave. In the end I guess I regreted ever saying the words " Good-bye".
Now I'm living in my regret as you walk away forever.Living that's a funny and ironic way to put it. It's more like I'm a walking shell of a human body. You can look inside me and see nothing but my regret. You see I have this mask and people seem to like it. If they knew the truth would they leave just like you did.
Your living and I'm dying. I know I am I can feel it. Somewhere I knew that I was going to end up dying when you left. Even tho I knew, I still had to let you go. Let you go free from my snare, because I truly did love you. Becuase if you stayed with me you would soon shatter like my soul, but before I could let that happen. I set you feel like a dove, that reached out to the crule world of the living.
Now I'm living in my shadows, and suddenly I turn to my insanity. Turning in hope to see you there. I would be lying if I said I didn't see you there, when you really weren't. I'd be lying if I didn't say I missed you. You see I'm slowly losing it as you go on in you pretty pretend world of drugs. You see what you see and I see you. I still don't understand it, but in my twisted away... I still love you.

To Be Contiuned...

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