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Enough crap, my name's not Saber, it's Sean. I'm a middle schooler who hides behind a wall of jokes and smiles. I am usually the kid who tries to make everyone's day better by telling jokes and smiling, laughing, but all that is just an act. I constantly have thoughts of suicide, slitting my wrists, hanging myself, jumping. I don't think anyone would be upset about my death, except the guys who have to scrape me off a side walk. I've cut more than once, somewhere around three and five times, two of those times were life threatening. I don't know why I saved myself, I really don't, I regret my decisions, not the decisions to cut, the ones to stop when I start. Usually my wall hides the real me, but every once and awhile my suicidial-self brakes through. It happens when I am alone with my thoughts, my thoughts of how ugly and worthless I am. I don't want anyone's pitty or apologizies, they don't have anything to be sorry for. It's me that has messed up my life, not them. The only reason I posted this is to get it off my chest, I don't want to feel like I do, typing this is taking away the pain with every letter. If you are reading this sentence, I thank you, you care about a boy who is afraid of himself, afraid of what he might do to himself, enough to read his story. Thank you.

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l0kk1

Report | 12/18/2012 7:55 pm

l0kk1

haha really? ... lol redface Thank you heart
EnoughofDatNow

Report | 01/08/2012 9:46 pm

EnoughofDatNow

I cried when I read your 'About Me'. Nice avi btw
Juubei323

Report | 01/08/2012 8:32 am

Juubei323

Hey, we both cried smile
Love you, bro.
Sprite Ghost

Report | 01/04/2012 3:10 am

Sprite Ghost

hey ... just wanted to say i like ur avi ... but since some other ppl already said it nvm ...
X- Bipolar Penguin

Report | 12/25/2011 12:34 pm

X- Bipolar Penguin

cool avi.
(:
Chrissy J

Report | 09/17/2011 6:00 am

Chrissy J

Hey there smile
Grim Fables

Report | 08/08/2011 6:09 am

Grim Fables

Hey,nice avi. smile
M y s t e r ii G h o s t

Report | 06/23/2011 7:57 pm

M y s t e r ii G h o s t

I'm actually not that advanced, just a bit ahead from most of the kids in my Orchestra Class Haha xD
And Why would you have to start over? That sounds like it really sucks... I know I would be really frustrated.
M y s t e r ii G h o s t

Report | 06/23/2011 7:49 pm

M y s t e r ii G h o s t

Wow well this is interesting cause I've been playing for 3 years(almost 4) too.
I started in school but I actually progressed more quickly than most of the other students so I didn't need Private Lessons or anything like that.
M y s t e r ii G h o s t

Report | 06/23/2011 7:03 pm

M y s t e r ii G h o s t

Ahaha x) Maybe. Shhh lol.
And okiess.

Also, I've got a quick Question.
How long have you been playing on that nifty violin of yours.. cause I play one too wink

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Let the pain go. Let the hurt go. Let the guilt go. What you're imagining right now, that world you control, that place can be as real as any pain.