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I'm a Lover
A Cheater
A Lier
Heartless
My Soul belongs to only one, What is done with flesh is of no importance, cos in the End I know who I'll be with.

All the lying and cheating will surely bite you
Dishonesty tears you apart and will eat you
All the anger and pain and the suffering and the shame
And the voices in your brain will surely haunt you

Let the guilt go, let the guilt go, let the guilt go, let the guilt go

I tell you one thing which leads to another thing
Then I backtrack which leads to hurt feelings
Then my brain spins off of ******** everything
When this happens I can't break through

All the anger, the pain and the suffering, and the shame
And the voices in your brain will really haunt you

Let the guilt go, let the guilt go, let the guilt go, let the guilt go

I tell you one thing which leads to another thing
Then I backtrack which leads to hurt feelings
Then my brain spins off of ******** everything
When this happens I can't break through

Now we waste our lives away
Letting guilt lead the way

I'm such a stupid ********
Listening to my head and not my gut
Constantly thinking and thinking and thinking
And thinking and thinking and thinking

Now we waste our lives away
Letting guilt lead the way

I tell you one thing which leads to another thing
Then I backtrack which leads to hurt feelings
Then my brain spins off of ******** everything
When this happens I can't break through

I tell you one thing which leads to another thing
Then I backtrack which leads to hurt feelings
Then my brain spins off of ******** everything
When this happens I can't break through

Journal

The Rantings of Randomness In My Life...

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Read and remember my life please.

Interesting highlights in my life... blah...my thoughts... you get to read about the voices in my head


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Kenaka_Elric

Report | 07/15/2008 8:53 pm

Kenaka_Elric

Wrote a new song today. A few words John said to me inspired this. Its been a few too many years since i have written a song. Please enjoy. Let me know if you ever find yourself in the same boat.
Kenaka_Elric

Report | 06/24/2008 10:28 am

Kenaka_Elric

I have been thinking over the past few months. I have decided on one thing. No matter who I date. I will no longer say the words "I l*** you" Why? Because i feel those 3 little words have been worn out in the english language. Words vocalize thoughts, but thoughts change. Actions are more absolute. To my family i will still say those words. But never to the one i date. Those that know me, know that the existence of such goes beyond words for me. Oh and new amv, really good anime. Ef- tales of memories. Go watch it.
Kenaka_Elric

Report | 06/13/2008 10:50 am

Kenaka_Elric

I got my diploma. I am graduated. And no longer single.

I love this song. Even if this is edited to make the AMV better. I thought this video would be appropriate. Since now the guy i am dating. I wrote his name in a Deathnote a year ago. I am his 19th Girlfriend. so if the book works any. Well, after we are done. i hope that curse doesn't work. (he is supposed to die after his 19th girlfriend). Ironic how this all works out.
Kenaka_Elric

Report | 05/14/2008 4:26 pm

Kenaka_Elric

PROM

was last saturday for me.... it was the best night i ever had!

I got to hang with my friends

have good food

and everyone looked fantastic!



This is the one dance i will never ever forget. homecoming my freshmen year is already a blurr... but this was my senior prom. never going forget!
Kenaka_Elric

Report | 05/02/2008 7:21 pm

Kenaka_Elric

Well..... scholarships are almost over with for me.... Apple Blossom is tomorrow.. i am marching... On Sunday i have a good chance of getting to go to the carnival with the guy i have a crush on. go ME!

then i have to get ready for Senior presentations... then Prom... not gaia prom... Real Life Prom... then.. its just a matter of staying afloat in classes... oh and monday i have districts in golf...
Kenaka_Elric

Report | 04/22/2008 7:36 pm

Kenaka_Elric

Well i qualified for the Clinical Research Trial.... ... i had to take a urin test... blood test... tons of tests..... well i am almost 100% in.. jsut got to pass the blood test... which should be easy. so yeah.. i will post more in my myspace account about the test and the experimental drug.
Kenaka_Elric

Report | 04/13/2008 8:03 pm

Kenaka_Elric

correction.... my arms got sunburned while skiing.... go figure... i now truely have unmatching tan lines.... these need correcting by prom.... and soon i will have a golf tan.... uggh... the solution for prom? air brushed tan aka sunless tanning... i have used the stuff in a can before and it worked really well.. but i want it professionally for prom... its harmless to your skin unlike tanning booths are. all it does is react with the outer layer of dead skin and makes it a little darker and lasts 3-10 days....
Kenaka_Elric

Report | 04/10/2008 5:50 pm

Kenaka_Elric

oh hey... yesterday I applied for WVC and this morning I get an email... I am accepted... yeah... this is not a school that turns most people away... but now I am on track for something better... I will go here just to get the cheap and basic credits out of the way... then on to a harder place, WSU!



And sunday is looking shakey.... one of my friends might not have enough money... so it will most likely be me and this other friend... i am nervous... i dont like awkward silences... (sitting on a chairlift there are many...)
Kenaka_Elric

Report | 04/10/2008 5:24 pm

Kenaka_Elric

well.... i am keeping my promise....



and that is ... Here is a new AMV that i saw at Sakura Con 2008.....



when i first saw it that day....



i.... i cried when i saw this video... yes i am a wimp...



it just reminded me of something...
Kenaka_Elric

Report | 04/08/2008 11:33 pm

Kenaka_Elric

today was really weird and overwhelming.... please let tomorrow be more..... relaxing?



otherwise at this rate i will not survive to see sunday.

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Love and War
All is fair
With my love
Anywhere

If love should end
And War never ends
Atleast I died
Safe in your arms.