me and justin and you!!!!

~~~~>>>>>that pic right there is me age 18 and very hot people say!!!!lol hope you like my profile well like talk about me i smoke drink and ******** alot lol cause im a pimp like that lol well i had a very close friend to me that kill him self and i love him very much i fell bad that i cant do anything about but well...hes in a better place now will i love justin very much!!!i love you!!!!!!!!and i love ally uo reading this!!!!We're a generation of two-faced backstabbers. You say you're apart of the revolution when you revolting against the very thing you've created.Stop listeing to what the corporations are telling you, be unique and original.You say you're the minority take a step back and look at the world we're living in.You're all the same all these faces trying to be the same thing. We're a generation built upon ignorance.You're exaclty what they want you to be, mindless robots doing what you think is cool but who gets to define whats in or what we should be? Take a look at yourselves you make fun of me because you think im emo or think i cut myself when you dont know a ******** thing about me.If you think you're gangsta or hardcore cause you were born in brooklyn and lived there till you were 2 you're ******** pathetic.You're brainwashed because the voice of america is through the youth so they've devolped a system for you to live by so you say exactly what they want. I refuse to be apart of it. You my hate me for it but take a look in the mirror who the ******** are you.You live by these rules, whats fair and whats not why do you get to determine how i act.Think about it im more philisophical than you and you'll probably never understand the way i think or why i do what i do, but i dont judge you for it im just a wake up call for you. You dug your own grave im just helping you fill it in.I beleive i was sent here for something greater than making money or being famous because when it comes down to it what are your riches for you dont get to take them with you when you die they''re all meaningless all of this is meaningless.
I absolutley hate mtv for telling us what we should and shouldn't listen to and how we should act and dress. People who follow mtv and that culture should wake up and be themselves not what some corperate office in new york is telling us to be. I hate anti-tabacco comercials people know it's bad for them this isn't the twenties quite trying to make people feel bad for smoking. People who complain about the war and say how we're just killing our men shut the ******** up it's thier choice to join the military and go over there and fight for us so why don't you show a little respect. And finally if you'd like to say something bad about me or say that i'm wrong just message me i'm happy to debate with you and tell you how you're wrong.~A Letter For You~ Pain and anguish i feel inside. Why can't I breathe when I cry. Would you give a ******** if I died. These are the thoughts I've kept inside. Breaking out, breaking down. I scream, but I can't hear a sound. Why can't we feel what we felt? A love with you never helped. Erase the past, lets start over. My self-esteem can't get much lower.(X2) Why can't I feel? Why can't I feel? why can't I feel? Why can't I let go? Hey Justin......god......i missed you so much today..i was like staring at the door wating for you to come in ...but you didn't come in.....i was waiting to hear hey buddy, but i didn't......i just can't even realize living without you and i am i.....don't want to think that your gone i still sit there and dream about all the times we have had an i still just sit here.....wanting, wishing, wating, for you to come up stair and me be all happy again......but it wont happen..., why not Justin......why can't you come and see me.....why can't i hug you....i want to hug you right now and tell you how much i love you.....but....i can't....i have to live my day and sit here...waiting......waiting.....for you to come......just to walk upstairs and say hey cameron made the coolest new song ......but it's not going to happen.....i don't know why you did this...?, did you not know how many people it was going to hurt..., did you?, come on you had so many people that care about you.....i mean where we had your funeral was like packed with me people i don't think i have ever seen that many people cram into that tiny space.....i just want you to know how much i love you..., i still have that message of the day you said hey cameron i have something to tell you and it's like really cool but i can't come over right now cause my mom's being dumb.....i saved it i listen to it alot just hearing your voice i remember that day, it's the day you told me you accepted christ.....and i'm sooooo happy you did.....i just i can't wait to see you in heaven, sometimes i feel like your standing right next to me like you know i feel some sort of energy......it's really weird but i really do thinks it's you watching over me like your my gaurdian angel.....maybe you are who knows...but then you really would be my best friend as a gaurdian angel....hehe..that makes me smile i know your having a fun time with your dad right now....i know you are so happy to see him....but you were taken early you were taken from all of us early and it makes me so sad to think that you actually did that to yourself...Just i know your safe in heaven and when i get there i know you will be waiting and we will be 2 scene kids dancing around on clouds hehe.....anyways I LOVE YOU!!!! I miss you too... Hmmmm...Justin....i miss you today i was thinking about you wich i think you already knew that...but when i was at school i wanted you to be there.....i was standing at lunch just wanting wishing and waiting for you to come up and say CAMERON lets go run naked through the halls!!! lol!!!! yeah for some reason i would have loved to do that with you.....but i can't, also we can't talk all bad like we were...like when Josh called you and you basically was just bagging on him lol!!!! hahaha that was helarious oh guess what me and Josh are kinda friends now so he dosn't really hate me anymore....but......i don't think he would have forgiven me if you didn't die, but i wouldn't of cared i would of rather you be here with me but your not anyways i know your having a good time in heaven well i love you bye! the person i love is now gone....., This is for Justin...., i miss him, i will miss him comming over scaring the crap out of me..., i will miss the weird...yet funny things he did, i will miss the how we played together when we would egg cars and house lol im sorry i never got to say good bye im sorry me and bret cold not stop you for what you did i want to cry every day but your love still is lying in my heart im sorry you were so sad to do what you did....i dont know how to act....your gone forever im soooo sorry i sorry....bye for now and for ever......, i just i don't what to do and i will always love him and remember him.....i know he had alot of friends...., but i was one of his closest friends....and i will always remember him, he was a good friend.....I LOVE YOU JUSTIN!!!!!i wort you a poem cause i love you lol I miss you, justin, very much, You gave my life a special touch; You did get angry and you did get mad, But when you were gone I was nothing but sad; Now that you've left I feel there's nothing more, A piece of my heart, I felt was torn; I went to see you I really did try, But I knew it would be our last good-bye; I saw your Angel she opened my eyes, Even since then, I'm not afraid to cry; I carry your Angel here by my side, It is in her, that I can confide; I know one day we'll be together, I will long for that day forever and ever. for you jamie my love!!!<3 i see thy love in the distance breathless gasping for air, for in thy dreams you where awakening to the bleakness in my room as my eyes begin to blear reality sets and starts the fear for do dreams come true or do i die alone waiting like the petals of a wilting flower fall off until there is non and the once beautiful flowers dies naked with no one to clothe it will i hold you in the grave or will the grave hold me? the numbing dreams never end the swallow's wings still amonsgt the idle wind my colored wold turns to grayscale recollecting the memories eyes covered hazel contradiction of thy thoughts standing calm love not lost searching till i find my princess whose passionate eyes cut right through me for what is life if love only exists in thy thoughts? what is romance if it is all fiction? nothing but a portrait left empty, a passing cloud of hurt by to meet ym love in the flesh is to find my whole heart your heart breaks though me your love is the key longing for my hearts door to what day till i see sunrays shine upon your face i dream of you the way you look the beating of love in your heart your wolds are like the flowing of a spring, knowing thy love waits for me until eternity's end is this poetry or is this love's sickness engulfing my every being take the heart from you and the blood ceases from me i see what you hear breathe taking the closest thing to me and my savior falling in love to a person i have never met but knowing she has salvation's fragrance by God's grace this love will be free and able to fly away above the earth to a point of exhaustion but your breath will keep me alive words are pointless for this love is speechless preparing fro the curtains close laying their clutching hands so tight i can feel your heart telling me it will be all right ascension to heaven wehre this love can not only walk but it runs through the endless fields of joy where love neither ends nor begins but flows everlasting this was thy dream this daybreak and will by thy prayer that i will rest sleepless till the sun rises on that day and butterflies sing with us as we write love symphony the pages of life fill the story of our love in a time long ago where fairy tales come true and you and i my love will live happily everafter i love youHey Justin......god......i missed you so much today..i was like staring at the door wating for you to come in ...but you didn't come in.....i was waiting to hear hey buddy, but i didn't......i just can't even realize living without you and i am i.....don't want to think that your gone i still sit there and dream about all the times we have had an i still just sit here.....wanting, wishing, wating, for you to come up stair and me be all happy again......but it wont happen..., why not Justin......why can't you come and see me.....why can't i hug you....i want to hug you right now and tell you how much i love you.....but....i can't....i have to live my day and sit here...waiting......waiting.....for you to come......just to walk upstairs and say hey cameron made the coolest new song ......but it's not going to happen.....i don't know why you did this...?, did you not know how many people it was going to hurt..., did you?, come on you had so many people that care about you.....i mean where we had your funeral was like packed with me people i don't think i have ever seen that many people cram into that tiny space.....i just want you to know how much i love you..., i still have that message of the day you said hey cameron i have something to tell you and it's like really cool but i can't come over right now cause my mom's being dumb.....i saved it i listen to it alot just hearing your voice i remember that day, it's the day you told me you accepted christ.....and i'm sooooo happy you did.....i just i can't wait to see you in heaven, sometimes i feel like your standing right next to me like you know i feel some sort of energy......it's really weird but i really do thinks it's you watching over me like your my gaurdian angel.....maybe you are who knows...but then you really would be my best friend as a gaurdian angel....hehe..that makes me smile i know your having a fun time with your dad right now....i know you are so happy to see him....but you were taken early you were taken from all of us early and it makes me so sad to think that you actually did that to yourself...Just i know your safe in heaven and when i get there i know you will be waiting and we will be 2 scene kids dancing around on clouds hehe.....anyways I LOVE YOU!!!! I miss you too... Hmmmm...Justin....i miss you today i was thinking about you wich i think you already knew that...but when i was at school i wanted you to be there.....i was standing at lunch just wanting wishing and waiting for you to come up and say CAMERON lets go run naked through the halls!!! lol!!!! yeah for some reason i would have loved to do that with you.....but i can't, also we can't talk all bad like we were...like when Josh called you and you basically was just bagging on him lol!!!! hahaha that was helarious oh guess what me and Josh are kinda friends now so he dosn't really hate me anymore....but......i don't think he would have forgiven me if you didn't die, but i wouldn't of cared i would of rather you be here with me but your not anyways i know your having a good time in heaven well i love you bye! the person i love is now gone....., This is for Justin...., i miss him, i will miss him comming over scaring the crap out of me..., i will miss the weird...yet funny things he did, i will miss the how we played together when we would egg cars and house lol im sorry i never got to say good bye im sorry me and bret cold not stop you for what you did i want to cry every day but your love still is lying in my heart im sorry you were so sad to do what you did....i dont know how to act....your gone forever im soooo sorry i sorry....bye for now and for ever......, i just i don't what to do and i will always love him and remember him.....i know he had alot of friends...., but i was one of his closest friends....and i will always remember him, he was a good friend.....I LOVE YOU JUSTIN!!!!! i wort a poem for you cause i love you lol....I miss you, justin, very much, You gave my life a special touch; You did get angry and you did get mad, But when you were gone I was nothing but sad; Now that you've left I feel there's nothing more, A piece of my heart, I felt was torn; I went to see you I really did try, But I knew it would be our last good-bye; I saw your Angel she opened my eyes, Even since then, I'm not afraid to cry; I carry your Angel here by my side, It is in her, that I can confide; I know one day we'll be together, I will long for that day forever and ever.for you jamie my love!!!<3 i see thy love in the distance breathless gasping for air, for in thy dreams you where awakening to the bleakness in my room as my eyes begin to blear reality sets and starts the fear for do dreams come true or do i die alone waiting like the petals of a wilting flower fall off until there is non and the once beautiful flowers dies naked with no one to clothe it will i hold you in the grave or will the grave hold me? the numbing dreams never end the swallow's wings still amonsgt the idle wind my colored wold turns to grayscale recollecting the memories eyes covered hazel contradiction of thy thoughts standing calm love not lost searching till i find my princess whose passionate eyes cut right through me for what is life if love only exists in thy thoughts? what is romance if it is all fiction? nothing but a portrait left empty, a passing cloud of hurt by to meet ym love in the flesh is to find my whole heart your heart breaks though me your love is the key longing for my hearts door to what day till i see sunrays shine upon your face i dream of you the way you look the beating of love in your heart your wolds are like the flowing of a spring, knowing thy love waits for me until eternity's end is this poetry or is this love's sickness engulfing my every being take the heart from you and the blood ceases from me i see what you hear breathe taking the closest thing to me and my savior falling in love to a person i have never met but knowing she has salvation's fragrance by God's grace this love will be free and able to fly away above the earth to a point of exhaustion but your breath will keep me alive words are pointless for this love is speechless preparing fro the curtains close laying their clutching hands so tight i can feel your heart telling me it will be all right ascension to heaven wehre this love can not only walk but it runs through the endless fields of joy where love neither ends nor begins but flows everlasting this was thy dream this daybreak and will by thy prayer that i will rest sleepless till the sun rises on that day and butterflies sing with us as we write love symphony the pages of life fill the story of our love in a time long ago where fairy tales come true and you and i my love will live happily everafter i love you ~A Letter For You~ Pain and anguish i feel inside. Why can't I breathe when I cry. Would you give a ******** if I died. These are the thoughts I've kept inside. Breaking out, breaking down. I scream, but I can't hear a sound. Why can't we feel what we felt? A love with you never helped. Erase the past, lets start over. My self-esteem can't get much lower.(X2) Why can't I feel? Why can't I feel? why can't I feel? Why can't I let go? Hey Justin......god......i missed you so much today..i was like staring at the door wating for you to come in ...but you didn't come in.....i was waiting to hear hey buddy, but i didn't......i just can't even realize living without you and i am i.....don't want to think that your gone i still sit there and dream about all the times we have had an i still just sit here.....wanting, wishing, wating, for you to come up stair and me be all happy again......but it wont happen..., why not Justin......why can't you come and see me.....why can't i hug you....i want to hug you right now and tell you how much i love you.....but....i can't....i have to live my day and sit here...waiting......waiting.....for you to come......just to walk upstairs and say hey cameron made the coolest new song ......but it's not going to happen.....i don't know why you did this...?, did you not know how many people it was going to hurt..., did you?, come on you had so many people that care about you.....i mean where we had your funeral was like packed with me people i don't think i have ever seen that many people cram into that tiny space.....i just want you to know how much i love you..., i still have that message of the day you said hey cameron i have something to tell you and it's like really cool but i can't come over right now cause my mom's being dumb.....i saved it i listen to it alot just hearing your voice i remember that day, it's the day you told me you accepted christ.....and i'm sooooo happy you did.....i just i can't wait to see you in heaven, sometimes i feel like your standing right next to me like you know i feel some sort of energy......it's really weird but i really do thinks it's you watching over me like your my gaurdian angel.....maybe you are who knows...but then you really would be my best friend as a gaurdian angel....hehe..that makes me smile i know your having a fun time with your dad right now....i know you are so happy to see him....but you were taken early you were taken from all of us early and it makes me so sad to think that you actually did that to yourself...Just i know your safe in heaven and when i get there i know you will be waiting and we will be 2 scene kids dancing around on clouds hehe.....anyways I LOVE YOU!!!! I miss you too... Hmmmm...Justin....i miss you today i was thinking about you wich i think you already knew that...but when i was at school i wanted you to be there.....i was standing at lunch just wanting wishing and waiting for you to come up and say CAMERON lets go run naked through the halls!!! lol!!!! yeah for some reason i would have loved to do that with you.....but i can't, also we can't talk all bad like we were...like when Josh called you and you basically was just bagging on him lol!!!! hahaha that was helarious oh guess what me and Josh are kinda friends now so he dosn't really hate me anymore....but......i don't think he would have forgiven me if you didn't die, but i wouldn't of cared i would of rather you be here with me but your not anyways i know your having a good time in heaven well i love you bye! the person i love is now gone....., This is for Justin...., i miss him, i will miss him comming over scaring the crap out of me..., i will miss the weird...yet funny things he did, i will miss the how we played together when we would egg cars and house lol im sorry i never got to say good bye im sorry me and bret cold not stop you for what you did i want to cry every day but your love still is lying in my heart im sorry you were so sad to do what you did....i dont know how to act....your gone forever im soooo sorry i sorry....bye for now and for ever......, i just i don't what to do and i will always love him and remember him.....i know he had alot of friends...., but i was one of his closest friends....and i will always remember him, he was a good friend.....I LOVE YOU JUSTIN!!!!!i wort you a poem cause i love you lol I miss you, justin, very much, You gave my life a special touch; You did get angry and you did get mad, But when you were gone I was nothing but sad; Now that you've left I feel there's nothing more, A piece of my heart, I felt was torn; I went to see you I really did try, But I knew it would be our last good-bye; I saw your Angel she opened my eyes, Even since then, I'm not afraid to cry; I carry your Angel here by my side, It is in her, that I can confide; I know one day we'll be together, I will long for that day forever and ever. for you jamie my love!!!<3 i see thy love in the distance breathless gasping for air, for in thy dreams you where awakening to the bleakness in my room as my eyes begin to blear reality sets and starts the fear for do dreams come true or do i die alone waiting like the petals of a wilting flower fall off until there is non and the once beautiful flowers dies naked with no one to clothe it will i hold you in the grave or will the grave hold me? the numbing dreams never end the swallow's wings still amonsgt the idle wind my colored wold turns to grayscale recollecting the memories eyes covered hazel contradiction of thy thoughts standing calm love not lost searching till i find my princess whose passionate eyes cut right through me for what is life if love only exists in thy thoughts? what is romance if it is all fiction? nothing but a portrait left empty, a passing cloud of hurt by to meet ym love in the flesh is to find my whole heart your heart breaks though me your love is the key longing for my hearts door to what day till i see sunrays shine upon your face i dream of you the way you look the beating of love in your heart your wolds are like the flowing of a spring, knowing thy love waits for me until eternity's end is this poetry or is this love's sickness engulfing my every being take the heart from you and the blood ceases from me i see what you hear breathe taking the closest thing to me and my savior falling in love to a person i have never met but knowing she has salvation's fragrance by God's grace this love will be free and able to fly away above the earth to a point of exhaustion but your breath will keep me alive words are pointless for this love is speechless preparing fro the curtains close laying their clutching hands so tight i can feel your heart telling me it will be all right ascension to heaven wehre this love can not only walk but it runs through the endless fields of joy where love neither ends nor begins but flows everlasting this was thy dream this daybreak and will by thy prayer that i will rest sleepless till the sun rises on that day and butterflies sing with us as we write love symphony the pages of life fill the story of our love in a time long ago where fairy tales come true and you and i my love will live happily everafter i love youHey Justin......god......i missed you so much today..i was like staring at the door wating for you to come in ...but you didn't come in.....i was waiting to hear hey buddy, but i didn't......i just can't even realize living without you and i am i.....don't want to think that your gone i still sit there and dream about all the times we have had an i still just sit here.....wanting, wishing, wating, for you to come up stair and me be all happy again......but it wont happen..., why not Justin......why can't you come and see me.....why can't i hug you....i want to hug you right now and tell you how much i love you.....but....i can't....i have to live my day and sit here...waiting......waiting.....for you to come......just to walk upstairs and say hey cameron made the coolest new song ......but it's not going to happen.....i don't know why you did this...?, did you not know how many people it was going to hurt..., did you?, come on you had so many people that care about you.....i mean where we had your funeral was like packed with me people i don't think i have ever seen that many people cram into that tiny space.....i just want you to know how much i love you..., i still have that message of the day you said hey cameron i have something to tell you and it's like really cool but i can't come over right now cause my mom's being dumb.....i saved it i listen to it alot just hearing your voice i remember that day, it's the day you told me you accepted christ.....and i'm sooooo happy you did.....i just i can't wait to see you in heaven, sometimes i feel like your standing right next to me like you know i feel some sort of energy......it's really weird but i really do thinks it's you watching over me like your my gaurdian angel.....maybe you are who knows...but then you really would be my best friend as a gaurdian angel....hehe..that makes me smile i know your having a fun time with your dad right now....i know you are so happy to see him....but you were taken early you were taken from all of us early and it makes me so sad to think that you actually did that to yourself...Just i know your safe in heaven and when i get there i know you will be waiting and we will be 2 scene kids dancing around on clouds hehe.....anyways I LOVE YOU!!!! I miss you too... Hmmmm...Justin....i miss you today i was thinking about you wich i think you already knew that...but when i was at school i wanted you to be there.....i was standing at lunch just wanting wishing and waiting for you to come up and say CAMERON lets go run naked through the halls!!! lol!!!! yeah for some reason i would have loved to do that with you.....but i can't, also we can't talk all bad like we were...like when Josh called you and you basically was just bagging on him lol!!!! hahaha that was helarious oh guess what me and Josh are kinda friends now so he dosn't really hate me anymore....but......i don't think he would have forgiven me if you didn't die, but i wouldn't of cared i would of rather you be here with me but your not anyways i know your having a good time in heaven well i love you bye! the person i love is now gone....., This is for Justin...., i miss him, i will miss him comming over scaring the crap out of me..., i will miss the weird...yet funny things he did, i will miss the how we played together when we would egg cars and house lol im sorry i never got to say good bye im sorry me and bret cold not stop you for what you did i want to cry every day but your love still is lying in my heart im sorry you were so sad to do what you did....i dont know how to act....your gone forever im soooo sorry i sorry....bye for now and for ever......, i just i don't what to do and i will always love him and remember him.....i know he had alot of friends...., but i was one of his closest friends....and i will always remember him, he was a good friend.....I LOVE YOU JUSTIN!!!!! i wort a poem for you cause i love you lol....I miss you, justin, very much, You gave my life a special touch; You did get angry and you did get mad, But when you were gone I was nothing but sad; Now that you've left I feel there's nothing more, A piece of my heart, I felt was torn; I went to see you I really did try, But I knew it would be our last good-bye; I saw your Angel she opened my eyes, Even since then, I'm not afraid to cry; I carry your Angel here by my side, It is in her, that I can confide; I know one day we'll be together, I will long for that day forever and ever.for you jamie my love!!!<3 i see thy love in the distance breathless gasping for air, for in thy dreams you where awakening to the bleakness in my room as my eyes begin to blear reality sets and starts the fear for do dreams come true or do i die alone waiting like the petals of a wilting flower fall off until there is non and the once beautiful flowers dies naked with no one to clothe it will i hold you in the grave or will the grave hold me? the numbing dreams never end the swallow's wings still amonsgt the idle wind my colored wold turns to grayscale recollecting the memories eyes covered hazel contradiction of thy thoughts standing calm love not lost searching till i find my princess whose passionate eyes cut right through me for what is life if love only exists in thy thoughts? what is romance if it is all fiction? nothing but a portrait left empty, a passing cloud of hurt by to meet ym love in the flesh is to find my whole heart your heart breaks though me your love is the key longing for my hearts door to what day till i see sunrays shine upon your face i dream of you the way you look the beating of love in your heart your wolds are like the flowing of a spring, knowing thy love waits for me until eternity's end is this poetry or is this love's sickness engulfing my every being take the heart from you and the blood ceases from me i see what you hear breathe taking the closest thing to me and my savior falling in love to a person i have never met but knowing she has salvation's fragrance by God's grace this love will be free and able to fly away above the earth to a point of exhaustion but your breath will keep me alive words are pointless for this love is speechless preparing fro the curtains close laying their clutching hands so tight i can feel your heart telling me it will be all right ascension to heaven wehre this love can not only walk but it runs through the endless fields of joy where love neither ends nor begins but flows everlasting this was thy dream this daybreak and will by thy prayer that i will rest sleepless till the sun rises on that day and butterflies sing with us as we write love symphony the pages of life fill the story of our love in a time long ago where fairy tales come true and you and i my love will live happily everafter i love you~~~~~!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!