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Heeheehee, this is where I shall keep my cards, and I'll group them in sales order.

[First Pak]




[Bonus cards]

*le sigh* I'm in such a shitty, angsty mood right now. My boyfriend and I go back to our last year of high school tomorrow. I haven't seen him for a week. I asked him if he wanted to see me, and he declined so he could get ready for school. Normal people probably wouldn't care about this, but I felt personally cut. I took out quite a bit of anger on him, and still am right now. I know it's also because his mother couldn't drive me this time, but I'm still hurt (To those asking, I have no other real way of getting to his house). I feel like he doesn't want to see me at all, like he doesn't care. It's ridiculous, i know he cares, but it doesn't feel like enough. I miss him so much, but I want to tell him to go and do something interesting. He likes to play video games, so if he's not going to talk to me over MSN he might as well do that. But I don't want him to know how much I hurt. And if I tell him to go, he'll see right through me. If he finds out I'm hurt, he'll just say "There there" and expect that to make it better. Nothing can make the hurt better. Not even if he came over, right now. Because I'd feel like he did it only so he could shut me up and not feel guilty.

*sigh* Yeah, that's about it for now. I hate my love life at times like this.

I'm officially killing my Flower Guide thread. After all the drama, I've come to realise I was wrong. In fact, when it comes to gaia, I can't ever recall a time when I've been right. It's done. It was a waste of my time.

But of course, no one cares and I'm only posting this to get some attention. So please don't give it to me. You'll only encourage me...

...and again I feel like I haven't got a friend in the world...

But after reading my last emo entry...I found comments. From two people I didn't expect. Well, one of them I really didn't expect.

But I still feel like an utter fool, and I just don't feel like trying. At least I've got my art shop to keep me going.

After being told I should go to the chatterbox and being blocked, and being insulted, I have finally realised that I, indeed, don't have a single friend on gaia. This is the only place I can rant about it, because if I tried to make a topic anywhere, I'd be flamed, as I always am. I know I shouldn't take it seriously, it's just a website. But I'm utterly alone right now, I have not a single person to talk to, and I just wonder why...
The people who I think like me on gaia aren't my friends at all. It serves me right for assuming they care, and being hurt when they turn on me. But hey, it's just a game...and there it is. No one has to comment. No one has to tell me I'm an attention seeker, an emo b***h with no one who cares...
...but it would be nice if someone would talk to me...

Mwahahahaha...all taken from that website.

People must love me. That's right, I said the L word. And why's that? Because in four days, I have a nearly completed avvie. I just need the belt. And the cap. Of course, we all know getting the cap is a b***h, but there you go.


Here are the sweet donators who gave up their cash for meeeeeee...

Seraphor
Xaxy
ThePinkSparkles
[Dark_Princess]

All other donators are in my sig.

Yes, I have a couple of long ones that I want to remember for future reference.

"Here's to stealing, cheating, fighting and drinking. If you steal, may you steal a heart. If you cheat, may you cheat death. If you fight, may you fight for a friend. And if you drink, may you drink to good health."

This one just speaks volumes to me. God knows why. I even want to do an artwork around it, just a simple 4 panel painting. I don't know, every time I hear it, or think it, I think of a bunch of devious, medieval rogues who are the greatest people you've ever met. Dunno, I'm weird.

"Sticks and stones may break my bones, but whips and chains excite me. So throw my down, tie me up and show me that you like me."

Saw it on a chatterbox thread actually. A club called "...but whips and chains excite me..."
Good work, guys. ^_^

"I'm Gene Simmons, and I wear higher heels and more makeup than your mommy does."

From Rock School. I heart it. ^_^

WOOOH! Finally got my Gaia address! 37 Barton 001149 beetches! I catch any cyberers in there and I'll strangle you and bring you down.

Also, I made a tiny mint out of whoring my artistic talents. And my fishes are a wonderful profit. When they want to be.