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As soon as I try it on with this girl, my flatmate just overthrows me and gets in there and tramples me down. Isn't this against the rules of engagement?! He got ******** last night and I haven't had any in a year! I think I deserve a shot at something. I can't even confront him about it because I'll p***y out and let him take over, as per the usual. What the ******** is up with that? He's just being casual and not trying. Whilst I'm trying my hardest and failing miserably. How can it be so easy for him and so hard for me? Why am I bitching about it on Gaia?

I hate being such a ******** up. I can't talk to anybody. I can't talk to girls, I stand no chance of seducing any girl who isn't plastered. I've worked so hard to try and me more attractive and more social. My friends have even tried to get girls to like me but it doesn't happen. I'm just that guy who's kinda cute. I don't want to be 'kinda cute' I want to be ********. Looks like there's no chance of that.

It's all ********. I don't want to be shitty me. I want to be super me, The guy who gets the girl.

Yet again, I come crying to Gaia because my life is going shittily at the minute. That in itself is pathetic. I just need it to be out there.