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Reid and I had been having problems. I won't lie about that. I got angry at him over little things and would try to pick fights. He told me at the beginning of April that he couldn't handle much more of it.
I started going to counseling to work on it.
That was 3 weeks ago.

After working on my anger, I got worried that I was being mean without knowing it. He told me I needed to stop worrying so much. That I needed to be me again.
That was 2 weeks ago.

Last week, I was happy. I was absolutely happy. I was me. I took him to breakfast Sunday morning for our 6 month. Wednesday night I spent the night in his room. We had sex, we watched a movie, we cuddled. Before falling asleep I asked him if I was being me, because I honestly felt I had. He said yes, he said he was happy and things were getting better. He said he loved me.

The next morning I left his room at 7:30am so he could leave for work. He got back at 6pm and asked if I would like to come to his room. He sat in his computer chair with an honestly depressed look on his face. I told him he looked like he was going to cry and asked what was wrong. He told me he didn't think we communicated the same way emotionally and he had been sad in the relationship for a while.

Since then he has asked for his space. He won't talk to me about us. But yet he asked if he could sit at my table today.

I'm so confused. I feel like I didn't have enough time to make serious changes to make him happy. He never told me he was THAT sad. He never told me he was concerned about summer break. I don't know what to think, and I can't get any answers because he wants his space.

I'm so ******** confused.
And I KNOW this isn't the end of the world. I KNOW that I will eventually move on if he doesn't come back.
But right now? Right now I want him back. Right now I feel like I deserve a second chance.
Right now I still love him.