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well if that bump drove me to the side of the road w/ a flat this one drove me into a tree... well after the little addoption wound was mended, i still poesess some of my Birt-parents undisirable traits... my birth mother, though i love her dearly, had passed on to me something i would rather live w/o... a mental dissorder called
BI-POLOR. This dissorder causes seveir mood swings. these mood swings make a person unstable, one minute they feel as though your on top of the world then the next... you feel like ending your life... though i never tried i did, once, think about it. this trait i obtained from my mother made me an outcast as a child... i was looked upon only as a freak of nature. so i became tierd of trying to have friends with the kids in my elementary school, so instead i sought companinship from teachers... and as a result i never learned how to propperly fit in well with the kids of my age. this has made it very difficult to make and keep friendships with kids... even now in high-school, i do my best to hold on to my friendships, their are still slipping trough my grasp... now even my best and longest friend Arther has abandend me. try try try as i might i really cant fit in anywhere... *hevy sigh*