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I don't know why but I feel so bummed out today. It's Saturday and I have to go tell my ex about his property. I think the thought of seeing him after such a long time has me feeling this way. I just want the conversation to go well, no argument or brush off, just a descent convo.

And I've been doing a lot of thinking about those docs. How can you tell if someone likes you? Sometimes I feel like I'm bothering them when I visit. I know they are busy and all but how hard is it to pick up the phone and leave a message? I seem to be the one doing all the calling, visiting and inviting. It just seems kind of desperate. That is the last thing I want to be because I am not. I want companionship but not with someone who doesn't need it back.

Sometimes I wish I had never gotten involved with anyone. I'd still be the same independent saiyan I used to be. Seems like now I'm unstable and emotional. I hate it!!!