At the moment I feel kind of alone but that is ok I can deal with this right I mean just because I am alone doesnt mean I am going to break down and die right? Then why is it killing me I am usually good at handling things but I am a lil upset about some things right now and I have no one to talk to. Here is a list of ppl who should just forget this entry(everyone) Just do it ok I am talking out of my butt at the moment because when I am alone I tend to over think things and it gets me into trouble. I am sorry since I was lil for most of you that know me should know why but I have issues with being alone but I have had time to get over them right? Wrong very very wrong I am still kind of alone some times I tend to shut myself up a lot so yeah it is my fault and no I dont tell ppl how I feel most of the time but you know what that is just me. I have shut everyone out for years and even now there are only 1 or 2 ppl I will open up to hopefully you know who you are. If not then I should open up to you more too I guess. Sorry. But any ways prom my enemy this year yeah prom should die go off yourself prom because I hate you and when you come for me I am going to beat you down with a stick a very large stick too. Sorry if that sounds crazy but I will I am going to rip you up and torture you till you scream prom you have made me lonely for the last time. I am going to get you now. Btw if you are still reading this entry you probably think I am crazy I am not I am just a lil upset right now and I chose to take it out on prom ok thanks. Any ways I am going to have to do some thing about the being lonely problem but the only bad thing is that I cant do anything about it when even my best friend leaves me alone she didnt even call me yesterday to tell me she wasnt going to have time to talk to me I mean how harsh is that ow much. Yeah it hurts but you know what kill them with kindness right well then prom I am going to smile while beat the hell out of you and my best friend you know who you are I am going to just well I dont know yet because you should know how it feels to be left alone and yet you still leave me alone so I just really dont know what to do because I cant be mad at you because I want to help you feel better but it is killing me because I am really upset right now that you kind of didnt act very friendly this weekend and it really hurt you didnt call me yesterday or today I know I know prom right well lets see what you have to say tomorrow when you still dont call me. Yeah thats right I know you arent going to call and I know you didnt want to talk to me this weekend because you thought I would probably ruin prom and you know what you are right I probably would have. If you are reading this then pay close attention you may think I am so going to get over this and it wont really matter tomorrow if you call or not but it will yeah it will and you know it deep deep down it will matter to Me! Maybe not to you but to me it will. I have to stop writing now before I say some thing I regret but dont worry I will be fine its not like you not talking to me hurts my feeling or acting like you didnt want me to be at the house when you came by to take pics today really hurts my feeling no it doesnt hurt Much just a lil bit but thats ok I will be fine I just dont know how long it will be before I talk to you or the other 3 again what really upset me was you and them didnt even really act like you wanted me there today but that is ok you guys dont really want me there period do you but its ok. I know why you didnt want me there I understand its because you thought I would act like a dumb freshman and as soon as I wrote the first few words on this page I spent the rest of it proving just how much of a freshman I am. But surprise surprise I am not a stupid freshman in fact I know a hell of a lot more than you give me credit for yes I know a lot of things that you dont know that I know and there are only 3 ppl at the moment that actually believe me when I tell them that well that is ok good bye. evil talk2hand Ok and I LOVE YOU JOEY! And just ignore this if you did read all of it and your sibs too it has nothing to do with any of you and I am sorry you had to read it if you did. But as for the rest of you I meant almost every word. 3nodding evil
 Noxious Divinity · Sun May 13, 2007 @ 07:26am · 1 Comments |
