What happens when the one person you need to talk to is the one person you cant? It really makes me feel cold like ice and shut out like there is a barrier between me and everyone else. And in that frozen shut out moment I realize just how sad and pathetic life really is when the only person I can confide in is myself because I have no one else. But what really hurts is knowing its my fault that I dont have anyone that I can lean on because I drove everyone away with actions and words a long time ago. When they left it didnt really hurt but there was one person that stayed and now that they are gone I finally feel the pain of saying goodbye and how much I wish I didnt have to say it but know I have no choice. That feeling is indescribably painful and yet some how comforting because at least now I know I can feel something even if it is only the pain of loss.
 Noxious Divinity · Sun Sep 21, 2008 @ 03:44pm · 2 Comments |
