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Dont make promises
You shouldn't make promises that you cna't keep.

I was promised once that I would never be allowed to feel alone again.

That promise from that person meant so much at the time, and i've never forgotten.

I stil talk to that person, but in a different, non-romantic context.

But I can't shake off the lies he told me that day.

It eats at me when im feeling so low

and it's hard to stay polite

not hold a gruge

Because he didn't mean to

He just said what he thought he knew

But it still hurts, and i want him to know how badly

You just shouldn't make promises that you just can't keep.


It was so long ago... well nto really. about a year or so i guess. And i was so hopelessly in love for the first time. And it was unexpected. He said the word first and before i knew it we were in a relationship. He promised me one night, that he would protect me from ever feeling so alone. And it meant the world. The next day i printed out what he had said to prove to my firends how wonderful he was...

Nowadays when im feeling terrible. It's after midnight an there's no one online but him. And he sits there, emotionlessly, a shadow of the man i once fell for, cold and hurtfull... and i want to remind him of his promise. SO many times, i have typed this out;
"You probably dont remember, but when we were together, you told me you'd protect me from ever feeling alone... you promised it. you shouldn't make promises like that"
and never hit send. because he woudlnt' remember. i would sound like i hadn't moved on (as i do right now) and because it's spiteful.

but geez it still hurts
and i wish it didn't
i wish i dind't care
because i shouldn't
i should be fine
i have every reason
to be just fine and ok
but im not





 
 
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