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MUSIC IS LIFE
Suicidal? Mental? Panic? Breakdown D=
SUICIDAL TENDANCIES--INSTITUTIONALIZED

Sometimes I try to do things and they just don't turn out the way I want em to.
And I get real frustrated and it's like, I take my time and I try real hard
And no matter what I do, and no matter what I try
It never works out.
And it's like, I concentrate on it real hard, but it never works out
And it's like, I need some time to figure these things out.
But there's always someone there going

Hey Mike:
You know, we've been noticing you have a lot of problems lately.
You know, and like maybe you should talk about it, you'll feel a lot better

And I go:
No it's okay, I'm having some problems, I'll figure it out myself, just leave me alone.
I'll figure it out.

And they go:
Why don't you talk about it? You'll feel a lot better.

And I go:
No I don't want to! Just leave me alone, I'll figure it out myself!

And they just keep on bugging me and it builds up inside
And it builds up inside

So you're gonna be institutionalized
You'll come out brainwashed with bloodshot eyes
You won't have any say
They'll brainwash you until you see their way.

I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

I was in my room and I was like staring at the walls thinking about
Everything but then again I was thinking about nothing
And then my mom came in and I didn't even know she was there and she called my name
And I didn't hear it, and then she started screaming MIKE! MIKE!
And I go:
What, what's the matter?
And she goes:
What's the matter with you?
I said:
Nothing, mom
And she goes:
Don't tell me nothing, you're on drugs!
I go:
No mom I'm not on drugs I'm okay, I'm just thinking you know, why don't you get me a Pepsi?
And she goes:
NO you're on drugs! You're crazy! Normal people don't be acting that way.
I go:
Mom I'm alright, I'm just thinking, you know. So why don't you like get me a Pepsi?
And she goes:
No, you're crazy!
All I wanted was a Pepsi, just one Pepsi, and she wouldn't give it to me.
Just one Pepsi.

They give you a white shirt with long sleeves
Tied around you're back, you're treated like thieves
Drug you up because they're lazy
It's too much work to help a crazy

I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

I was sitting in my room and my mom and my dad came in and they pulled up a chair and they sat down,
They go:
Mike, we need to talk to you
And I said:
Okay what's the matter?
They go:
Me and your mom have been noticing lately you've been having a lot of problems,
And you haven't been acting like yourself.
And we're afraid that you're gonna hurt somebody.
And we're afraid that you're gonna hurt yourself.
So we decided that it would be in your interest if we put you somewhere
Where you could get the help that you need.
And I said:
Wait, what are we talking about? We decided!? My best interest?!
How can you know, how can you say what my best interest is?
What are you trying to say, I'm crazy?
When I went to your schools, I went to your churches, I went to your institutional learning facilities?!
So how can you say that I'm crazy.

They say they're gonna fix my brain

Alleviate my suffering and my pain
But by the time they fix my head
Mentally I'll be dead

I'm not crazy - institutionalized
You're the one who's crazy - institutionalized
You're driving me crazy - institutionalized

They stuck me in an institution
Said it was the only solution
To give me the needed professional help
To protect me from the enemy, myself

It doesn't matter their insurance money is about to run out anyhow.




SUICIDAL TENDANCIES--SUBLIMINAL

Flashing pictures on my screen
Shown too quickly to be seen
Does not register in my conscious mind
Propaganda of another kind
They're ******** with me subliminally
They're ******** with me subliminally

Danger - Nightmare
Doomsday - Nightmare
Murder - Nightmare
Nightmare, Nightmare

Watching T.V. I start to cry
For no reason I don't know why
Could it be from messages on my TV
Which I'm getting subliminally?

Mind control the easiest way
Sponsored by the C.I.A.
It's a weapon you cannot see
It's propaganda subliminally





ACTION-- SUBMISSION

Forced into squalor, condemned to be poor
Promised reprieve like a temper, a lure
Prospect of success is the bait they employ
To keep us complacent and stifle our cries

SUBMISSION'S THE TOOL USED AGAINST US

Malleable minds watch the news on TV
Fed select information that's deemed safe to see
A palatable reality prepared behind doors
Safe for the masses who care for no more

SUBMISSION'S THE TOOL USED AGAINST US

Consumed by the dollar the greed that it breeds
Consumed by consumption and purposeless need
They watch from their towers the rat race unfold
Moderate the millions who do what they're told

SUBMISSION'S THE TOOL USED AGAINST US





THE UNSEEN--SCREAM OUT

Well All My Life This Music saved Me
I Can't Afford Your Therapy
My Frustration it needs release, cut me open and hear me bleed
Playing Punk It Keeps Me Sane
I Don't need drugs to numb the pain
It keeps me alive, I hope it helps you
I won't let your worthless America Ruin Me

NO WAY!
I'm screaming out, somebody listen,
It feels so good
This Therapy
I'm screaming out, somebody listen,
It feels so good
This Therapy

I lost control and hurt myself
I knew deep down I needed some help
The self-abuse would not stop,
No matter how hard I tried
So I Lied And I Pulled My Life Together
Am I Going Insane?
Think Again
I Got So Fed Up With Being Unstable

NO MORE
I'm screaming out,
Somebody Listen,
It Feels So Good,
This Therapy!
This Therapy!

I'm screaming out!
I'm screaming out!
Get Me Some Help!





KORN--FREAK ON A LEASH

Something takes a part of me.
Something lost and never seen.
Everytime I start to believe,
Something's raped and taken from me... from me.

Life's got to always be messing with me.
Can't they chill and let me be free?
Can't I take away all this pain.
I try to every night, all in vain... in vain.

Sometimes I cannot take this place.
Sometimes it's my life I can't taste.
Sometimes I cannot feel my face.
You'll never see me fall from grace

Something takes a part of me.
You and I were meant to be.
A cheap ******** for me to lay
Something takes a part of me.

Feeling like a freak on a leash.
Feeling like I have no release.
How many times have I felt diseased?
Nothing in my life is free... is free

Boom na da mmm dum na ema
Da boom na da mmm dum na ema
GO!

So...fight! something on the...
Fight...some things they fight
So...something on the...
Fight...some things they fight
Fight...something of the
No...some things they fight
Fight...something of the...
Fight...some things they fight





CHEVELLE-- THE RED

They say freak
When your singled out
The red...
It filters through

So lay down
The threat is real
When his sight
Goes red again

Seeing red again

This change
He won't contain
Slip away
To clear your mind
When asked
What made it show?
The truth
He can't send to most

Seeing red again

They say freak
When your singled out
The red....
It filters through





 
 
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