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ok ok i know my journal latly have been retarted but i'm going to get serious now.)
I hooked up with Shad again after dumping Drew. Drew was a stupid selfish jerk who cared for no one but him self. Sure Shad may just be an online boyfriend but o well i like him heart lol and to all you haters of online dating out there your just mad that i got a bf and you dont so eek lol well now i will tell you my whole lifes story wow this is gonna take awhile. * takes deep breath* p.s. some of this stuff i haven't even told Shad kk!_! Ok My name is Hadley. I grew up in the country. when i was young i lived with my mom, dad, and sister. after my first home was sold to a friend of my moms i went to live with my grand ma whoooo lol. But back to the first house a lot of things happened there that i should share before moving on. when i was young i remeber sitting in my fathers den in my underwear lol ( i was 5 retardes ) with my sis also in underwear lol ( she was 3 were 2 years apart ) we were watching the simpsons eating a bag of potatoe chips. Then my sis got up and left the room. (Skips details) long story short my dad made me touch him and no he did not touch me. I love my father to death but what he did was wrong and it messed me up in the long run cry . in my 1st home my sis also choked on a square jolleyrancher hehehe it was friggin hilarious after she spit it up of course lol. During the time in my 1st home my mom kept asking me over and over again how my dad made me touch him she made me us a broom stick to demonstarte and sometimes baby dolls the more she asked the worse i felt * sighs *. I moved on (for the time being). When we moved out of that house and into my g-ma's everything was ok then mom started asking ?ins again. then my mom started getting on chat sites and never spending time with me and my sis i became depressed during that time * sighs * and i was only 8. one day my mom got a letter from one of her (chattin) buddies. dad saw it and flipped mom threatned to get a devorice or how ever you spell it. After that they kept threating us they would get a devorice if we didn't clean our room or pick up our toys. after sometime they did get a devorice and my sis blamed it on me! she said because i told mom that dad made me touch him that it was my fault that he had to move out i was so upset and pissed and depressed i couldn't take it anymore. I started hangin out with a girl named grace. My attitude change instead of being my normal sweet self i became cold hearted i hardly spoke to everyone. my mom just told everyone i was shy when i was really just in my own little world. i like to imagine my self in other places where i control the out come of all events muhhahah no in my world everyone suffers alittle but in the end they get what they truly desire. smile after my dad moved out my 2nd home burned down and my uncle died and after that guess what! i got burned by a pot of scoulding hot water that left a carrot shaped scar on my arm yes it does look like a carrot lol it is awsome. i was thinkin about getting a tatoo of a rabbit to where it looked like it was eating the carrot but i decided against it lol. well now adays i'm just chatting online hanging out with friends. if you have any ?ins about anything i wrote feel free to pm me kk ( tell you more about me tommorow *sighs* my life sucks... Except Shad I LOVE YOU!_! lol heart
(p.s. feel free to comment on any of my journal entries.. lookin forward to ur comments ninja WHERE ARE UR COMMENTS!_! lol)