[current mood] neutral.
[current music] Mind Forest - Gackt
[currently...] wondering if the weather is due to global warming or if it's just because wyoming's weird like that...
Yep, it's raining, this freezing, wet, cold rain that just makes you want to cuddle inside on the couch. Tonight it's supposed to snow and tomorrow is supposed to be even worse! Wyoming always has had weird weather, I mean last year it snowed in July around the 4th. But I'm seriously ready for some freaking sunshine already, I mean it's summer for pity's sake. The weather's also not brightening my spirits any. I'm trying to have this positive attitude but's it's really hard when I can't get outside ( = get away) and have some time to myself. My mom is driving me crazy. She's freaking out over nothing, and it's been this way for more than a month. It's like permanent PMS! It's making me hate her more than ever!! That's why I savor every minute of my brother's baseball games during the weekdays. NO ONE is home except me so I can actually go online for an hour or so and blast J-Rock on the computer, not to mention feel at least a little calm and collected for a while.
I went up to my grandma's today, I visited and cleaned up a little. I really enjoy going up there, I love them a lot and it's not so chaotic. I can actually feel good around my grandparents. I love them to death. I also want to cherish every minute I'm with them because I know they aren't.. it's sad to say but I know I'm not going to have much time for them anymore, entering high school and all... and they don't.. have too much time left.
Anyway I cleaned their kitchen and tomorrow I'm going up to vacuum. It was around 1:00pm when my mom called and was yelling at me to get my a** home and clean my room (hello! I cleaned it yesterday) all the while telling me I don't do s**t around this house. She also had the nerve to say that I might as well live up at my grandparent's house because I can clean up there but don't do any cleaning at home. That's total bullshit! Guess what, they actually pay me when I do my fair share and don't yank away all my allowance for supposedly not doing anything when I did everything I was supposed to + more.
I hate my family. I'm not a total ******** loser just because I don't play sports like my precious angel brother and I'm not good at anything but it doesn't give them any right to hit me around and yell at me for no reason.
-sigh-
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