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Most of you know that issue I had a while ago..."her."

Well, I'm going to finish this thing once and for all. it's a hefty load of reading, so be prepared.

Somethings even had to be omitted...

Well...Here it goes then.

We were best friends for 10 years, never argued over anything...nothing real anyways. Mostly joking fights related to stuff like "I claim this anime guy!" funny stuff like that.

So, she had this boyfriend. Guy HATED me. I didn't even know why. Just did.

he dumped her for another girl.

I was there for her during that time.

This year, she got another boyfriend. Trung was his name (Vietnamese). So, I was great friends with the guy last year.

I remember her telling me that they were going out.

I was just lying there, drawing a picture of one of my RP characters when my phone rang. I knew it was "her" from the ring tone, and picked up. things were all good at first, the usual laughs, the usual "I would drag you over to my place after school so you could hang here, but you mom hates me" an going on and on about the random stuff we usually do.

So, after a few good laughs, she says "Hey, I have something I wanna tell you." She sounds serious. I say "do I need to kick someone in the nuts for you?" (I'm the leader of this pack and I take care of my friends.)

She laughs, nervous, and says no. I ask her what then, and go back to drawing. She says "Well...me and trung are going out."

I freeze for a second, and laugh. "I knew it! I knew it! I knew it was gonna happen! You've been clinging to him since the year started! Ha!" And I laughed and teased her for about 5 minutes, then she had to go.

Things were ok, but about 5 hours later...

It hit me.

she was going out with him. I finally REALLY realized it.

And I cried.

I cursed myself for not having acted earlier. Maybe we could have gone out. she was always describing her ideal, and I fit in that description. But I hadn't acted.

So, I tried to be happy for her. Always smiled for her, happy that she was happy.

But...i wasn't happy. I was...jealous. and it was gnawing away at me.

Then things got bad.

She started ignoring me. We would always hang out at Montecito Plaza after school til we got picked up. She wouldn't talk to me when he wasn't there. Nothing. i tried to get a smile out of her,nothing.

I finally asked "Why don't you ever talk to me when he's not here?"

She said "We have NOTHING to talk about."

Nothing? So, all those Saturday mornings and breaks we spent talking from 6:30 AM to 4:30 PM...was nothing? All that time I ran up my cell bill and my parents got mad....nothing?

Things got worse.

He started treating her like s**t. Physical and emotional abuse. He lied to her and did horrible things. Always leaving her crying. But you know what? She wouldn't talk to me about it. I had always been the closest to her, but she was distancing herself.

Keene had told her...how I felt...

We were still friends. We talked and laughed...at least when trung was there. it hurt.

I has always done everything for her. Bought her what she wanted, I did what she wanted me to do, and everything...

NEVER said a single bad thing about her behind my back...

Now, I have a friend here on gaia. I told him of this problem, and he confronted her. She said:

"Tri is a total a*****e, he treats everyone like s**t, loud and bossy and he's terrible to everyone."

She didn't know who she was talking to...

So he conveys this to me. I'm shocked. She goes on and says more and more...and it just HURTS.

It was a slap to the face.

In that time, I did a 180 spin...love...to hate...

Things got worse.

I couldn't stand it anymore. Until one day....I snapped.

All my friends had a meeting to try and settle the chaos brewing in our small group. This issue was brought up. She said:

"You trust you ******** internet friends more than me! You don't know if they were telling the truth! You've only known them for ******** 2 months and you trust them more than me!"

"Well you only ******** knew trung for 2 WEEKS and you trusted him more!"

I cried.

I yelled at "her", and cried.

Well, I only yelled a bit. Not much.

But I was so sick of it...she was being a b***h to me, until I...

"Ok, you know what? You have no idea how much I cared about you. No idea! If I had to kill everyone here but one person, YOU would have been the one to live. I LOVED you. And you threw it back at me. You didn't care. I cared. And you don't even know what that b*****d says about you behind your back. He doesn't love you. He doesn't. He says all sorts of s**t about you! And the only reason I didn't tell you, was because if I did, you'd think I was trying to get you to break up with him and get with me, when all I would be trying to do is stick up for you, and watch out for you...and..."

I walked over to my bag and shoved my bottle of Coke into one of the pockets. She went over to hers and got her stuff. We both walked off. I was crying, she wasn't. I was like that through most of biology.

We are no longer friends.