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A Life That Died Before It Got To Live (please read all)
Lucia S. Vana'diel
me.... well.... i want everyone to forget about me..... i.. i feel a... burden to everyone that i know... so.... this is goodbye
April 7 1996, age 8
i.... i..... i want to be forgotton
Voice and words:
how can a voice talk if it doesn't have words, and how can words have a voice.... i... i have a voice and i have words... but... i... never have anyone that will listin... i..... just feel lost and confuse, scared, and lonely at the same time.
Soul:
my soul is lost from what i have done... i will not say and i will not talk about it, i... i just feel lost and just dead inside... i... i feel stuff no matter what happens, i feel what i read and i can feel a hand on me when i see," i place my hands on you back and starts to rub your back" like that ... i can feel that and i feel calm, is it my soul that let's me feel that of is my feelings that strong... i'm scared
Forget
everyone that reads this journal entry please forget about me and the names,
Yue Dragoon
Lucia S. Vana'diel
i want to be alone and... forgotton.... it hurts when i'm with the people i love.... it's hurts even more talking with them. a new name i was givin was Ashken by a very nice person.... but... i'm not like that... i am into girls but i never tried and i know i hate boys a lot..... i will talk to boys as friends and nothing more....if you could.... i.... i would like to be release from being a slave *blushes a little and looks at the ground a little sad and crying inside* i.... my guardians... i release you from protecting me and i want you to forgive me for hurting you
Family:
Mommy, sissy, and brother..... i'm sorry but... i... i have to *looks sad and tears fall onto my lap* i have to cut myself off as a daoughter, you will see me about but... not with this name... i'll be starting a clean slate, or a clean record if you like to call it. onii-chan.... i'm sorry that i didn't talk to you.... i'll regret that... sissy... i'm sorry for what i done and i still forgive you still from what happen in the past. Mommy.... sorry for... doing ..... anything to you...Family.... goodbye and forever *starts to cry*
is.... is it really hard to forget about someone that wants to be forgotton?... i want to be forgotton and left alone... it's not that i want this to happen but i..... i just don't want to be a burdin*
Roleplay and life
life has it coruse of how we all die and when we die, it's the same for roleplaying in eyes of those you think about this. in roleplay you make everything happen but with limits, in life we are make as character and the setting and plot is already preset just like in roleplays. but what i don't understand what are roleplays and life for
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