...Ive just relived a few of my vrey most painful memories, and i just feel drained. Its like all my strength is gone. Ive cried and cried again, and i feel dehydrated. But im not ready for water just yet. If i drink it, i know i'll start back up again. Only 10 more minutes or so..
I guess right now im not going to have much good to write, even though ive had alot of good happen to me recently. Im painfully happy. But, i need to get away. Away from here and away from alot of people i know. I just need a long vacation with someone. Maybe even a long vacation from myself. I want to get rid of alot of memories...alot of painful memories. I want to erase people form my mind, and im even willing to sacrifice good memories for this release. It hurts. Im scared.
Im in for another nightmare tonight.
I guess right now im not going to have much good to write, even though ive had alot of good happen to me recently. Im painfully happy. But, i need to get away. Away from here and away from alot of people i know. I just need a long vacation with someone. Maybe even a long vacation from myself. I want to get rid of alot of memories...alot of painful memories. I want to erase people form my mind, and im even willing to sacrifice good memories for this release. It hurts. Im scared.
Im in for another nightmare tonight.
Lets go far away, shall we, lovely?
