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Have you ever felt true love or true loss?
I have felt true love before and I can't tell you a feeling I miss more than that. The love of my life, the thing that helped me get my life back, Was Jessica Adam 1988-2006. I met her in the very house she lived in, I'll never forget that day. She fell in love with me at first sight as i did with her, We dated a a month or two, then her parents died in 9-11 of a business trip in the twin towers. There last words to Jessic and her brother Alex were: "We love you both very much, you mean the world to us." They were gone 4 ******** day and Died in thoes towers. With the thought that they would never see there children again. Her life fell into Ruin after that day. She fell into shock and I was there the whole time. 6 day she never woke up and 6 days I never left that Damn hospitle bed. So her aunt moved to stay with her and her brother. They got the life ensurence money, $100,000. Jessic bought our wedding rings, but never gave me mine. she was going to wait for when I finished High School. I made a promise never to leave her or love another women. I kepted my promise and so did she. She moved to Maine a year after, but I said to her "I will find you, do you here me? I promise Jessica Marie Adam, I promise." She gave me a hug and Kiss for that last time. I called her everyday. for 1 year and a half One she stopped picking up. I was worried she had broken her bromise, but she didn't. 3 days later her brother called me and told me she had died by getting by a car while she was on her walk. If you want to know why I can be evil a bitter to you, this is why. My life turned to hell after she died. I'll never forget her face, her smile, her kisses.......You think about thing when you talk to me. Think about why I'm mean and bitter, it may be a selfish reason, but it's there.