Why? That's because I have had about three months off school and Neal&I couldn't see eachother. Again.
This time it's even worse. His parents are actually trying to break us up. They think they know what's best for their son, and they couldn't be any more wrong. In fact, they're driving him away. And, so soon as he's eighteen, he's moving in with me and my family.
If my aunt still hasn't rented her little condo by that time, Neal and I are going to be living there together, once I'm eighteen. My mom, aunt, and stepdad think it's a good idea. We may be starting our lives sooner then most people would like, but screw them. I'm finally going to be happy, and maybe, just maybe, I'll be able to be a teenager for a bit again.
'Cause, frankly, I never had that stage in my life. It went from childhood to adult. Then I get the people saying, "Well, you're not a legal adult." or "You're still changing and you are not mature enough." ******** YOU. SRSLY.
I make immature mistakes, but I can asure you it won't happen again. I live with only one parent [and my stepdad's moving back in. u__u] and she's depressed 65% of the time. I have to be mature when she's like that.
When she goes to work [which is the cause of all the depression] my stepdad usually talks to me about real adult situations. Example: Bills & how much it's going to cost to change my room and his.
Also, I do have to balance things. Maybe not in a checkbook, but in my mind. When I want something, I always ask myself, "Oh.. could we even afford this?" & when I know we can't I'll usually put it back, or stop wanting it.
I have upmost respect for my elders. As badly as I want to yell at my grandma, I don't. As much as I want to spill out secrets my stepdad asked me not to tell my mother about.. I don't, because I promised I wouldn't.
I have: a drunk father that never tries to contact me. An aunt that, as soon as she got married, left for another life. A grandma that's not the same grandma I knew before because of her stroke. Lastly, a mother that's depressed and nonmotivated.
Though, as my mother says, "Things could be a lot worse."
-Jessica.
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