In my life I have always wondered why I am here and whats the point of my existence. There have always been many more downs than ups or more bad things then good. Sometimes I wish I was dead so I wouldn't have to go through this hard struggle called life. I always wonder well would that happen to me, will I ever actually be happy, will I accomplished my goals, will I always be loved by the ones who I think love me, or will I be later hated by the ones who claim they love me. I don't have an answer for any of these questions because I can't predict the future, I can only live in the present and hope everything will work out for me. My life is so ******** messed up thats its not even funny. Many people might not know why I feel this way and they will never know it until they have lived the life that I have. I hope no one live the life that I lived so far and I want out. I can't stand it anymore. I don't want to say that I need help because if I do get the help, it might not work and I don't think I will be able to get through to anyone. I guess there aren't many people who says they can see through other people because if they could why haven't they seen through me yet and see the pain that I feel everyday. I guess I'm that type of person that keeps things bottled up and I am exactly like that. I always keep stuff bottled up and I don't like to talk about it to anyone. I try not to think about my life as much. I just try to live it day by day and then deal with whatever comes my way the best I can. I also think I keep things bottled up because if I do try to talk to someone about it, they probably wouldn't understand where I'm coming from. You see every life isn't perfect and mines is a perfect example. So do I think my million questions will be answered, no I don't and I think they never will.
Jackie-Donnelly Community Member 
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