Hi APG.
I'm sorry for leaving without saying goodbye.
If you haven't noticed by now, I've been gone. For quite a while it seems.
But I don't plan on coming back, honestly.
I love most of you, but there are some of you that I feel I could never get along with after the commotion with Skittles.
I recently got the chance to talk to your guild leader, Persephone Lilac.
We talked, and I asked if I could have the thread in response to Skittles leaving.
She sent me it and I've decided to post it here.
This is my journal, and I can put whatever I please into it.
I guess the tables have turned. Just as Skittles did, I'm now posting a thread that caused the both of us pain.
But this time, I don't care.
Because I know what I did was true.
I know what I wrote was the truth.
And here it is:
GREG or E Ho`kay.
So.
Skittles left.
And I'm the person she was referring to in her thread.
Why am I making this thread?
I'm making it because she got to tell her side of the story.
So I get to tell mine.
I'm not leaving, kids. Can't get rid of me that easily.
Okay, so Skittles revamped an old journal entry of hers that causes me pain and her too.
I PMed her telling her that all that is doing is bringing up horrible memories -- for me and for her.
So I told her to stop dwelling in the past. What's done is done.
She referred to someone who didn't apologize (who was not me btw).
I told her she should just PM that person. Head on, instead of using "subliminal messages" to get his attention to apologize.
We went back and forth for 2 PM's.
I started getting a little heated, I admit. But I honestly was giving her advice.
But then she told me I was being annoying and she also said that "I was just mad because no one was making a big deal out of it."
That sucked, honestly.
So I flipped.
I told her I had lost respect for her.
I told her I never wanted to speak to her again.
It was hurtful, but it was the truth.
I didn't want to talk to her. That's it.
This happened like a week ago.
We went on fine.
I just didn't read her posts, and she did her thing too.
I was fine. And I was completely over it when I sent my last PM.
Then this happened today with her stating she left because someone said hurtful things.
I PMed her asking if it was me and she said yes, which was to my suprise considering this happened a week ago and that she seemed fine.
So I apologized.
I said that I don't want her to leave because people love her here.
And that I may not, but that's life. People like you and people don't.
I apologized for being rude to her. But I didn't apologize for not liking her.
I told her that in life, people don't like you (as I'm sure a few of you won't after this post).
But it's life, and you learn to get over it.
But she doesn't want to and that's her decision.
She then ignored me.
She spoke to me with kindness in the PM's --
Kindness that didn't show in her vindictive post.
So I just thought I'd share the story from my perspective.
TY.
Sorry if this causes problems.
This is both sides of the story.
I admitted to my wrong-doing. In some parts of the post, I even made me seem like the "bad guy." Unlike Skittles' vindictive thread, I didn't call anyone a bad person and I didn't make her seem like the monster she made me out to be. I stated that she may be a good person, she may be a bad person, but the fact of the matter is that you have your right to like her and I have my right to not.
To those still at APG.
To those that I loved.
Don't ever give up.
You guys are strong and the guild shouldn't fall to the likes of the weak.
The strong tell both sides of the story.
The weak tell one.
The strong admit to being wrong.
The weak make themselves always correct.
The strong confront their problems.
The weak anonymously tyrade against them.
The strong have the right to their opinions.
The weak are a prisoner to theirs.
The strong look down upon pity.
The weak live on it.
 GREG or E · Sat Aug 04, 2007 @ 08:35pm · 0 Comments |
