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Deep s**t This is some stuff going on with me and my mind so if you dont care or dont have anything nice to say, dont bother to say it because I can come back tenfold.


Fauna Doe
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Epiphany
Who are we?
Are we dark or are we light?
Are we good or are we evil?
Ying or yang?

Life is what you could look at as a triangle, a simple machine shaped like a pyramid, classed where the most important is our peak and the least is our base. In the middle we have the mediocre cogs and they churn for the peak and weight down the base. We are rich. We are average. We are poor.

We are classed.


Why are we classed?
Are we Christian or Satanist?
Are we weak or are we strong?
Are we heterosexual or are we homosexual?

In each of our own cogs - communities, if you will - we class ourselves based on race, gender, sexual preference, religion, education, standards; anything that makes us who we are and that can be judged. Because of that we have things that prevent us from being what we should be. We are so dependent on being unique that we let our differences seperate us and go against the other without hesitation, relization, or inspiration. In our own way, we have a mindset where we think only onw way and our minds are not opened to anything else. There is no such things as a "open-minded" person. There will always be things we dont like. Things we dont accept in our communities and therefore we seperate ourselves and discrminate and places rules to protect out stubborn minds from getting too close to something that we believe isnt supposed to be touched.

Why do we think this way?

Its our faults. Its not television. Its not technology. Its us. Everything we have, we have created. We are our own enemy and because of our own insecurity you will find that everything we have gotten, we deserved. The Black Plaque. Racism. The Great Depression. Death. 911. And in due time, the destruction of our planet. Do you know why there was a meteor that crashed into earth those billions of yeas ago that destroyed the dinosuars and split Pangea up into the continents we have today? It was a test.

A higher being - nature? God? Satan? I dunno. - put us to a test. They wanted to see if we could handle seperation and change and difference and we failed. Instead of uniting, we put up walls and waged wars and became tyrants and grew power hungry. Do you realise that all great powers fall? Did you realise that? Hitler for example. Not a great man, but a dictator. He left his mark on history because he played his cards right and used his brains for genocide to kill people he didn't like. His mind was terrible, but because of our walls and our uniqueness it was either his way or death. And what did we choose? His way for a while, but look how long it took to notice how many unrecognised people went dead before we had to make him stop. Too long, right? Imagine if that were to go on our machine. Our pyramid of life.

We are our own people, like it or not stubborn, greedy, and jealous, all lead with the belief that we are to work hard for a better reward. We are Christian and other religions alike who only come together when the term "wealth" is involved. People preach constantly about how God wants us to be wealthy "in his name" or how some being wants us to have peace and whatever else bullshit people put in your head.

Lies, lies, lies...

Your life has nothing to do with your religion. The bible is nothing more than a book a man wrote probably for kicks to get out his story. There is probably no God or Messiah or Allah or whatever higher being you worship. We have gone centuries beliving in things that were written by people just like you and I. Little did we know we would be worshiping some kind of being who supposedly made everything from the stars to the planet we live on. We are so bent on getting onto this person's standards we make sacrfices and pray - some too much - and get others to believe just so we can make ourselves feel better.

Now before I continue, I'm a nonconformist. I'm not bashing anyones religion or whatever you believe, this is my own thinking and if you think its a crock or bull then dont bother to leave a comment and be ever kind to yourself and just leave this journal because honey, your words dont mean s**t to me.

Continuing...

We go through so much that we build more walls and more walls until finally we're so seperated and stupid we are all alone.

What am I trying to say?

Ah yes. What am I trying to stay? Oh, I dunno. STOP, maybe? Or GET A ******** GRIP possibly?

We are not doing our jobs people. We are led by lies into a society who is getting fed because of our blind wants and desires instead out or needs and services.

In other words Im trying to say we all have a purpose and the pyramid wasn't our purpose. We werent even supposed to have our own seperate purposes beause hadn't we split apart, we would be just fine. Im saying God or whomever doesnt want us to be rich or poor or in pain or whatever emotion you can think. He wants us to know.

Wisdom.

He wants us to know and understand that maybe there are things better than sex, money and girls. Videogames and computers. Movies and stars. Drugs and alcohol. All that. He doesnt even want us to find peace and have love. That comes later. And we talk all this s**t about Nirvana. Well who the ******** are you to say that Nirvana isnt already bestowed upn us and that maybe, just maybe we were so ******** busy pissing off our bosses or getting into Yale or too caught up what whatever was wrong with us that we couldn't see that maybe it was there the whole time and we passed up on it. Life wasn't meant to be a pyramid based on classes. And those who are smart are parasites because soon, when the s**t hits the fan all the bums and the children of the world are just gunna be like "Ah, ******** it." and keep on going.

...I know I will. 'Sides,

I'd rather be the dirtiest, laziest, weakest, passafist, homeless ******** you'd ever see and still be smarter than you rather than putting up a front and pretending my life is sunshines and daisies behind some dickwads desk.....

A bum on the street aint got no worries....You have a house, car, kids, husband, job, morgage....Need I go on?

So yeah, Id rather be a bum with no class, no job, no money, no power, and just the clothes on my back to keep me cool because anythings better than being a piece of "dancing crap on society's plate" cause aint nothing than being a parasite.....

And if you choose to be a piece of "dancing crap on society's plate" then that's cool. Just know there are plenty or parasites ready to eat off of you.






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iLoveless
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comment Commented on: Tue Aug 21, 2007 @ 02:34am
Wow lot of words, man


comment Commented on: Sat Sep 08, 2007 @ 02:50pm
Are you ok Keke? Cuz I'm worried..



Kuba Knightfield
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