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Today really sucked.. Let me start from this morning:

I was still sleeping. I had a terrible nightmare. In it, everything was bloody. it was scary.. then there were a bunch of gravestones with all of my friends' names on them. Then there was someone who said they were murdered. All of a sudden, some dude starts chasing me with a knife. Then he stabs me in the heart, and blood was pouring all over my hands. My friends rose from the dead and started chasing me. Then I started screaming and woke up. My eyes hurt really bad because I was crying very hard, and my nose was bleeding. I went into the bathroom and looked at my face. It was scary.. I cleaned my face and put a whole bunch of makeup all over it so nobody could tell I was crying.

I went to school and avoided everyone. I was afraid that if I looked at my friends, then I would break down right in front of them, and I really didn't want to.. so I just ignored them. No one came up to me.. no one talked to me.. no one said anything. I just felt so alone.

After school, I got on the bus, sat in my seat, and started crying.

My life sucks.

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