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It has been kind of long since that happened..i can still remember it as if it was yesterday, the pain will never leave this heart, broken, shattered into pieces, stepped on it several times..I was left with a trauma that will last for a long time, i don't know how much, i just know it would.

It was vacations of Semana Santa [in mexicali], my parents, a friend of mine, and I, we went all to a week of vacations of Disneyland and to see Cirque Du Soleil on Long Beach California. It was amazing to be there, the music, the people, everything was so amazing, by that time, i had a boyfriend, my mother constantly reminded me of buying something to him, until i saw a perfect T-shirt for him, the colors, the shape, the size, everything was so perfect. I bought it. We were going back to home in our car, i, was sleeping with the T-shirt on my hands, resting on my lap on the car. As we got home, i saw the calendar and i saw, that it was Friday, that meant that in two days school started again. I was pretty nervous i was in 7nth grade 12 years old.

It was Monday, i forgot the present for him, i felt guilty, and promised myself on the next day i will give it to him. The next day i took the present on my backpack and waited till it was time to go home at 2:30 pm. I called for him were there was no one on the classroom.
"Hey ------" I called for him while taking the present out.
"Yes?" he said leaving his backpack on his place and looking toward me.
I walked up to him and looked at the ground and smiled slightly. "here.." i said handing over the bag with his present. He looked at it, and then placed it away with a very serious expression. I had never seen him that way, so i got a little nervous.
"Can..i tell you something without you getting angry or anything?" he said looking out the window.
"Yeah..sure.." i said looking at him
"I..i..don't really feel anything towards you, i never did, i was obligated to ask you to be my girlfriend..I'm sorry..but..i think its just puppy love.." he said then looking back at me.
"D..don't worry..I'll be okay..anyway..i had already notticed that.." all what i had said..was just a lie..a BIG FAT LIE.. I was completely in love with him, as soon as he told me that..I was shattered into pieces.

As I arrived home, i quickly got out of the car and left my backpack on the stairs, i opened the door of my room and shut it with all my strength. I couldn't hold it anymore. The pain..the pain was so incredible..I couldn't stop crying i locked the door placed a pillow on my face and continued crying all day long, my mom called for me several times and i only grew mad at her. I felt asleep still crying.

The next day, i was still badly injured from the inside but went to school with all the pain in my heart.

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