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ok, so yesterday, was a predictable tuesday..but later that day, i got TOTALLY FREAKED!!!! omg, ok,i live in this big house, and i dont have my own mail box, i have to go down the street. then theres this big metal thing, and its got like 7 other houses mail, so ANYWAYSS....it was like sundown, i think, and i had to go get my mail, and i open my front door and theres my neighbor (and for some weird reason, he runs across MY yard and into my OTHER neighbor's yard) and im thinking like "wtf.. eek ??" and he just sits in their yard and waves at me. so i just wave back..i honestly didnt think anything of it (i've been living here since like the end of February and i have NO CLUE of what his name is. idkw but NOBODY seems to go out of their houses in my neighborhood. confused i dont think thats really normal, but whatever..) so anyways.. i walk and get my mail, then when i walk back, (i look at the floor cuz im not very cordinated sweatdrop ) i look up and he's leaning against his mother's car and im like oookkkk...and he says "hey!" so i reply back "hello!" and just to bring up a quick but needless conversation, i ask "how's Wilson?? ( my old Jr. High School which he is now going to.) then he says "good, hows Central?? (my High School!!!! mrgreen heart ) so i say back "good, its fun!" and for some reason he says "your wearing my shoes." ( they were black vans w/ pink hearts and a pink skull on them....oh, im still walking by the way.) and im like "wwhhaaa???" and hes like, "i like your shoes.." and im like "haha, i know they gansta huh?" and he just laughs and says "yeah!!" (...ok, the scary part is going to be coming up, so KEEP READING!!!) so i was hoping that was the end of our "conversation" but as i walk back to my house, he walks back to his, but suddenly turns around as quick as he can, and asks "hey, can i ask you something?" and im like.."yeah, sure.." and he just OUT OF ******** NOWHERE
he pops up the quetion i have been waiting for since like the 7th grade!!!!! "you wanna go out with me?" and im thinking something like "WTF?!?!?!?!?!?!?!" (OK, I HAVE NEVVEERRR BEEN ASKED OUT..NEVER BEEN TOLD IM LIKED BY SOMEONE..NEVER BEEN TOLD IM LIKED BY THE PERSON I LIKE..NO, NONE OF THAT!!!!!! and at that moment, i was so VERY UPSET!!! you know, if i were to be asked out, i would like it, oh so very much, for that person to be the same age as me (or a little bit higher), to be the same grade as me (or a little bit higher, or atleast have that person go to the same HIGH SCHOOL AS ME!!!!]but no, it just so happened to be my neighbor, who i have yet recalled his name, by the way. who is in the 8th grade while im a freshman in high school, who happens to know me from jr. high but i have NO ******** IDEA of what planet[/ihe is from, and to top it ALL off, he's not emo, or even close to some hott emo person!! he is another one of those "omg, im sooooo badass" cholo guys!!!!!!!!!!!! and all i can freakin think of is "uummmm....kid your not my type." and it just sat there on my lips, just waiting to come out, but my stupid emotions just went blank, so i litterally stood there for 10 WHOLE seconds, "uuuuggghhhhh...." *pause* "uuummmmmmmm...." *another long pause*
and so i just stood there and he has the nerve to ask "will you think about it?" *pause* "uuuuummmmm, sure lets go with that.. talk2hand and after saying that, i walked away with my head low, and he once again turns around and says"think about it!" and i didnt even turn around. i just kept walking..and finally, at that exact second, i could feel my eyes getting swelled up with STUPID ******** tears!!! (if you KNOW who i am in person, you know how hard it is for me cry.)
so, after that, i put the mail down, and walked slowly upstairs and into my room,and idkw, again, but i just colapsed and laid there for almost an hour crying and holdng myself... emo crying emo crying emo yes, i KNOW its a stupid reason, but yeah, i was crying!!!!!! and my mother walks in and so, i tell her, and she says "oohhh, so thats why he's been waiting all these days.." and im like burning_eyes eek burning_eyes eek i mean, do you know how STALKER STATUS THAT IS?!?!?!?!?! i was soooo freaked!!!! how do i know that he's not outside waiting for me right now?!?! omg, im shaking!!! *twitch* *twich* oommggggg...... eek .....i have always wanted for the first person who asked me out, atleast for me to like them back!!!! i dont care if it was just a tiny spark....but atleast there was something!!!! ok.....my fingers are starting to hurt so i might right more later but im terribly sorry that this is so long, but i had to get it off my mind. (if you actually read all of this thank you ssooooo much!!!!!! mrgreen )