so there is this amazing girl.
and i want to see her.
and i want her *in every possible way* more than anything.
she makes me smile. both on the outside. and the in...
she makes me actually able to deal with the pain i suffer hell through every day.
and she makes my heart feel like its actually alive again.
for the longest time i've felt dead.
but now....i just feel....better...
she isn't mine. but i wish she was.
i wouldn't hold her as a trophy *even though i would be like you know your jelous*
i wouldn't use her. just want to cuddle and hold her tight. *all the time*
i wouldn't want anything but her happyness as well as my own.
but isn't that what love is. a mutual feeling between two people that makes them feel like there is actually somthing to this perilous existance?
idk how to say some things. and i don't know how to show her.
i just wish i could actually make her more than a friend.
more htan a best friend.
i wish to be her boy and her bestest friend.
i want to mean everything to her.
as she does me.
i also hope she see's this.
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