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My god! Only a week until I graduate and I couldn't be more excited! I'm still scared about certain classes, though. I need to finish up my portfolio for graphics communications but I think I'll be alright since I'm going to work on it tomorrow. I've been focusing on cleaning my room today because I've really let it go with all of the school stress and stuff. I'm just trying to tackle things one at a time...sort of. Apparently, they're supposed to be teaching us how to juggle more than one thing at a time. AKA: time management. No matter how I tackle it, time likes to tackle me right back. And to be quite honest, I worry that I've had no true exhistance yet.

Let me try to articulate this so that anyone who reads might understand a bit better...
Lately, my brain has been baking all sorts of strange ideas, both logical and completely unreasonable. And I understand that this isn't very abnormal for most teens reaching my maturity and/or stage of life so if these don't make complete sense, I advise not to think about it too much. It can really hurt your brain xp Its already hurt mine enough times xd

So then, let's try to put one of my most recent ideas into words.

The way I've been seeing things in the mind and spirit point of view, it almost feels as though I've been an empty shell. Something being prepared for the individual about to inhabit it. It rather exciting to me, but its also quite scary because, in a sense, it feels as though I've never truely been worthy of being labelled as individual until now or soon to come. I sort of thought of it as childhood, being the time that one's mind developes most, as the stage before the spirit inhabits it. First the body and mind must be trained in order for the spirit to develope, or so I've noticed in most books and stories. You know, the 'coming of age' sort of idea. Although I still don't have it in concrete. Its still rather vauge and I'll probably forget it entirely once I graduate or get into college but I thought I should write one of my ideas down for once. I tend to be very forgetful and often forget great ideas for stories/drawings/even scientific ideals that I think certain people would be interested in. Although, most of the time, people brush my ideas off because it confuses them too much or something. Which also makes me wonder if I have some sort of complex that formed because of god knows what (maybe that old commercial-thingie I did when I was like...7?).

And while I'm on that thought...Have you ever wondered about your sanity? Sure you can call yourself or friends insane or crazy with them, but you all know that its joking around, right? But have you ever actually counted how many times people say it to you? In my case I hear it at least 2 times a week on average sweatdrop To be honest it has concerned me a few times on occasion...espescially when my mom gave me the same 'you're insane' look when I was joking around. sweatdrop Yeah, a tad concerning...again, best not to think of too much, it hurts the brain @_@;

ANYways. That's probably enough for now. Gonna fry my brain sweatdrop