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I've wandered this road about a hundred-million times... I've retraced all of my steps and still I end up with the same result:loneliness. I've wondered, as I walk these steps... what the secret is? I've seen them all, happy couples laughing as if tomorrow didn't exist. Perhaps they've found that place, the place they say exists only in Einstein's Dreams. The place where lovers stay lovers for infinity and never part. The place where time ceases to move and becomes an obsolete thing.

Why is it that I cannot find such a place? It seems as elusive to me as the fountain of youth was for Cortez. Would I find it if I gave up my life to look for it? That in itself is doubtful. Not even Columbus, who journeyed so far and lost so many, found his route to India. Perhaps love, companionship, is something that only finds some of us. Perhaps there are some of us who are destined to walk the tiled path to our death in solitude. After all, Love is so frail a word. Remove one of its letters and it ceases to be Love. It is such a frail emotion, bringing us both pain and happiness. To be in love is to be laughing and crying at once. It is to stand in rain and sunshine at once. It is to be alone yet surrounded by dearest friends. A delicious agony.

I would give anything for such an agony... perhaps I will be patient this time. Perhaps I will have her again. Perhaps I will love her again... If not, I can feel myself fading ever faster....into this deepening despair.

"I Love You.."