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It would appear that I still do have some surprises left in my life...

I don't know why, but I really didn't expect Greg to come over tonight for my birthday dinner...even tho I asked my stepdad to make scrapple, and I know Greg likes it. I just didn't want to expect anything. I'm so tired of expecting things and then not having them happen...like preparing for the worst. Why can't things just be simple? Why must I always torture myself?

But he did come. And I missed him so much because for some reason I've had a really lonely week. And he bought me a ring--silver, with a pink crystal heart. I wasn't expecting anything, but it is what I really wanted. I don't know why, but jewelry has always meant something important to me...like a deep symbol of love or whatnot...not like I need a ring or a necklace to show me that...I think it might be fake, but it doesn't matter. I still love it. And I love Greg. With all my heart. Even tho I sometimes don't know what love is, I can still say that I love him. And I'm so glad he remembered. I'm so glad for the surprise.