A year ago today something very important happened to me. It changed all of who I am allowing me to be the more open person I am today.
Perhaps i should tell you a short, abbreviated version of why today is special. Very few know of this and I assume only my friends read this anyways.
My Short story
A man who I considered a loving parent, caring and kind turned out to be a hateful and spiteful person who would wind up hurting me for life. He was my stepfather, my second actually. For several years from when I was four till when I was 11 or 12 he was just fine. That was for elementary school.
Mom got pregnant with my little half-brother who is now a three year old exuberant child. Well beginning with that was to begin my nightmare. He molested me. Yes, no lying here. A few of you know this. Well that went for almost two years, till the very end of my 7th grade year.
Thank GOD for my friends who made me come out of my little hidden shell. That began a chain of events that would change my life extremely. I told my mother and that's where things fell into place, he was moved out within days and I was off to colorado where I was to live for who knew how long. For a year I fought against ever wanting to come back.
He pled not guilty. I came back in spring of last year against all wishes in my heart. That day was not to be the end. New evidence was found. His confession. So another couple of months passed and I was back in Colorado.
Today, a year ago I had come back to testify. It was hard, the air was stuffy, stale and forboding. However I did not drop my head and bow down. Oh no, I had come too far. I won. 50 years in the state penitentry.
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My life has been an up and down rollar-coaster but I have changed a lot. I used to be a meek, quiet, mousy person who didn't ever come out of my little shell. Many people have noticed my extreme downs and ups. Now today I have to remember a lot of things, what happened happened. I cant help it. Now it shows I have learned even more in this past year. I have become my own person.
However today hurts my heart to. The memories are nearly too much but the remembrance of the victory is there to help even the score. I know eventually I'll be just fine but right now, tonight I feel like crying.
 Jazzmo13 · Fri Jun 17, 2005 @ 03:15am · 2 Comments |
