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OK SO TONIGHT AT CHURCH WAS AMAZING........Anfd kinda annoying.

The Holy Spirit was moving all throughout the room, people were on their knees (Mine were on the ground as well) in WORSHIP! .......Ok everyones except one group.

I used to be part of a very bad group, that was involved in a load of terrible crap, and I stayed in that group for 2 reasons

1: I made a promise to change them around
2: I'm the former leader and starter of the group

But they kept pulling me down, and so to my dismay....I just had to pack my bags and tell them, I wasn't going to have anything to do with them anymore. They were all really sad, but that was my final decision.... I watched them, I prayed for them, I tried to encourage them to get involved, I even had a guy in the group who said he'd take my place and try to draw them closer to God. They've apologized to me, but I told them I won't except it till I see a change.... They're excuse was always "Well you're not around to see the change" and then I say "If you were really on fire, and there was a "change" then I wouldn't have to be around to notice it."

Well tonight I was just about ready to rid some of they're heads off! Twice they were told to pay attention by my youth leader, because they were sittin in a circle in the back of the room.......TALKING.....About stuff not even related to the message. So when we were ending the service with a BANG! I went to the back....and stood there, till they noticed me....which they did after a minute or 2....One of the girls, a sweet girl named Devinie (Who is not like the others in the group at all) Hugs me, and the other ask if I was coming back to the group....I told them "You said a month ago there was a change....yet all I see is couple of immature kids who can't pat attention to a message for more tan 5 seconds." they whined a stuff and I left....tears in my eye's after I left. I went back to the front of the room and began worshiping again, and then out of the corner of my eye I see Nadilee (Who is like the new ringleader and the girl that was in the middle of all the bad stuff) she pulled me off to the side, and said "You're being judgementle, you're 17 I'm 14, you're more mature than me, so stop complaining." I then said and pointed back to 2 13 year olds in the room who were on they're knees and said "Theres people younger than you doing what I do...Why can't you see that" She then says "I have a short attention span and you know that, plus I told you I'd give up the bad stuff, and I have...for more than 3 weeks now (She made the promise a month or 2 back) then I said "But you still don't see the big picture... I'm done with you, and the group, you need to listen and be broken before, not just give up a few things." she snuffed at me and I walked back inside.

I've never had to argue with that girl face to face like that before. I just pray they see the picture.

On a happier note. My friend Jeff is gone (We are friends again) to Orlando studious riding roller coaster with his dad.... While he was gone His mom, 3 little sister, little brother me and my friend Christopher went and are redecorating his room, so it can be themed entirely for music and guitars! (He's a music freak, he writes his own songs and lyrics, plays guitar and keyboard!) Tomorrow we're going back to his house and hiding in his closet! And we're gonna jump out and surprise him whn he gets back! rofl IT'S GONNA BE SO FUN.....Oh and if Morgan reads this entry....we will have Pirates 3 and I am going to own u xp