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I feel like there is a whole inside of me... when i was a child i was all alone, i had no friends and my family was never there for me. I've been yelled and beaten up by the one i loved in school and my friends would ignore me so i ran away. I remember them telling me that if there's a problem or you need to talk to someone, we'll be here. But when i needed them they weren't there... no one was there.

In School people would make fun of me and call me a loner, i ended up doing tutoring because i was failing english and even in Ballet and Jazz people were better than me. I ended up quiting tennis because i was busy with dancing. After 9 years of dancing i decided to quit because teachers and other kids would say mean stuff about me.

My mum and brother are the only ones i truly trust. My dad on the other hand is a jerk. He overburdens me by making sure i do well in school. He forces me to do things i don't want to do and if i refuse he yells at me and turns mum against me. One time a couple of weeks ago he told me to get a life.

I've taught myself to believe that everyone is against me. I feel as if no one is there to save me and now i feel as if it'll stay that way. That i am doomed to walk my life by myself, alone. i am forever forsaken.