I've been sitting here with nothing to do but think. And then a song came upon my ears, "my immortal" by Evenesence. Now I know some people don't like this band very much, but just sit back and listen for a moment. Sky once said this song reminded her of me, she never fully said why though. Each time I hear this certain song it always reminds me of her now. And now I sit here deppressed thinking about when her and I were together and from all the times she was smiling, during which ones was she actually happy?
I know I've been told I think too much, but I can't help it. Esspecially when someone I just started talking to tells me they think they love me. I'm not going to say who, but someone. This person felt gulity about telling me this and there was no real reason to why. They never did anything wrong, but they felt they did. I wish there was something I could do to make them feel like it's alright.
Plus, there are two more people that claim they love me and I have no idea what to do. I feel like I'm leading them on by the way I act. I still have these strong emotions for Sky that she'll never know about and they still seem to dictate my thoughts and actions. I know it may sound creppy, but...I still love her...I want to find "the one". So I keep looking and everywhere I look I fail. Sky, if you are reading this. I'm sorry if I creep you out by saying that I still Love you. I can't help my emotions. I just pray you'll always be honestly happy.
edit: I just found out my older cousin Steve died on weds. He had three kids....I don't even know what to think.
 Phoenix Maristat · Fri Jul 01, 2005 @ 07:11pm · 4 Comments |
